My life does take a lot of twists and turns and to be in a regular routine that is in long term is just something that has not happened for awhile.
It seems as if a couple of years sped by and while it seems I passed some things, some things I must have not passed. Either that or I am being chased for whatever reason.
I guess I'm adjusting to some new things as time goes on and even though it seems new to me, it brings a different sense of some kind of stability or dependableness in my life. It is hard to accurately pinpoint it. I can't say there are any particular individuals that I do depend on and trust, but I am noticing that my life seems to have a little more structure and organization.
Again, I can't see the big picture, but I notice some level of structure that is involved in my life that I don't quite understand.
I have a fresh paranoia. I feel I should be more guarded on this one, but what I am currently paranoid about now is not the same paranoia that I have had beforehand.
I had a somewhat eventful weekend this past week. I did receive obvious attention. I can't quite see how other people may have taken it, but I took it as opportunity and a chance to have a say. I have a small victory that I finally had a chance to smack Mick. It was a sloppy disrespect, but I think I at least got the message across with how I feel about him. I hope I didn't ruin my moment when a friend I was with said how cold it was and started laughing at me. I kept a straight face and paused at him while he laughed, and then I started laughing with him. It wasn't really to make fun of myself in this instance, but a laugh of "yeah man, I am a bitch."
Relationships with anyone is very mystifying and a Burmuda for me. It is foreign, foggy, and perplexing. I'm not sure if someone really is interested or not. I could have a Lynard Skynard moment over it:
Other than that, I keep to myself and don't have much else to say.
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