Really overloaded and active day

I think I have had about all the media and getting around for the day.
I hate that I have to suppress myself a little in being vague by being catty. I know how I can be misunderstood when I am not specific, but I have to be.

I didn't go to any bars tonight. Neutral about it.

I feel that I did have a lot of freedom and a say. Not really as much as I'd like, but compared to a lot of other instances, I felt I had more opportunity.
After I say some things, I regret it yet I don't. I hate feeling misunderstood, but at the same time, its kind of just another day.

I'm not sure of all of the drama that is going on. I see some words and a few actions, but I still get confused and can't see what some people are completely getting at.

I feel I am learning more and picking up on some things. ................

Herman knows who he is. I can't say that I would want to be in a serious relationship with Herman. I will always see our high school friendship as a good memory. We had fun. Presently, I cannot see myself in a serious relationship with him.
There is another obvious assumption. I have already given my answer and I am pretty sure he knows what I said, but he still seems persistent.
Josh M could be another assumption. I am anorexic to any connection he may have made.
I am not going to say a word about the actual source who I'm sure it is obvious enough with some people.

In other connections, I do not know what kind of cancer may be going around, but I am not part of my parent's church. I do not associate with anyone. I may be civil if I see them in public, but I'm not necessarily on any close level with anyone even though they may know me more than I know them.
I have no feelings for Joel C. I am not attracted either.
I don't know if my parents may be getting desperate for me to be married, but I am very appreciative of the media presentation of the Asian woman who married herself.

Jimmy Kimmel. I am getting a lot of mixed signals from him. I'll only say a few things. I agree with the philosophy "A person should not have to ask to be loved." I agree with that. As with everything else, I believe in balance and that there should not be an extreme perspective. I am not afraid to tell someone I miss them. I am not afraid to tell a man that I need enough time and attention from him if he wants to stay in my life. Call me overdemanding, I think if a man truly cared, he really wouldn't mind spending time with me and actually being in my life. I don't really like throwing myself on someone, but sometimes, I can be spontaneous. I really do prefer a man to be the first aggressive and continue with give and take. I am complicated though and there is not really a systematic program that will be a guarantee to work.
As for taking initiative to be a part of a public sexual broadcast I COMPLETELY DENY IT. Putting the name "Gary," on me is being a tumor.

The baseball throw was pretty obvious, but I could not really tell who he was directing it at. He is obviously angry and it is a little shocking to see him being obviously violent. I've seen other guys do it, but they are more disguised about it. I'm ashamed of you Jimmy Kimmel.

I feel I have probably learned some secrets tonight though and I find it shocking and I am left without words.