hahahhaha Some days, I really wish I could sing that song. Maybe there is a twist to the name of the band "The Dead Weather."
Maybe I'm not getting catcalls after all and someone is taking my work joke seriously about the soap opera comment. It really is fun to be creative and role play sometimes.
I did see one obvious cat make a comment that he is celebrating. I slightly question if he may have hidden feelings of murder on the inside, but I choose to believe him for the most part. The attack just was a horrible impression. I really did have bad dreams and still unexplainable physical attacks that I fell back asleep anyway. It sounds like it is a very positive thing with how he said it that he is celebrating, but I have some doubt for the fact that I don't know him well, if I am taking him the right way. I wonder a little if he is connected to Eric Hanson. He looks like him more than his literal brother "Eric" does, but maybe there is no catty connection at all and he completely represents himself.
I think NY Moscow may have been trying to make another pass at me today by making an out of the blue statement that we are married. I'm pretty sure his name is Alec, not Baldwin. But a noncelebrity Russian-American.
I am open to knowing more about him. When they talked about arranged marriages in general, I do mean "no" both generally and personally, but if Alec cared enough, I would take the time to get to know him better. But, if it is a waste of time anyway, what is the point in getting to know him?
In a side thought it does get a little shocking to see more obvious communism and even outspoken communism at that.
I was a little pissed at the rigged video. It was about deaf people and of course it is inappropriate to laugh, but with particular names and people they pick, it is impossible to not laugh with some people.
I think my next witticism I make over the phone would be to call myself "Sarah Rosa Parks," and I am from Russia where I refuse to give up (and get off of the bus) with what I am offered: figuratively speaking, I am offered only two jobs as a server to work at either: IHOP or waffle house. There is slim to none serious relationships available. The statistical optional shovings are either women who have an attraction to me, or the dumbest of men who are ignorant in so many ways and wife beaters.
(I can't say that in the U.S., because I really do have a job right now, but it feels very familiar. )
Ok, I did get a major catty compliment the other day and it was much appreciated. But, I am very real with myself. I've already faced a lot of hate and rejection. I am very skeptical that I would be more than a fling and ever considered for marriage with a type of man (does not always have to be in power or status) that I would sincerely admire and think well of. I'm tired of taking risks and getting hurt. I still think people obsess too much over my relationships and I think it is a major factor that sabotages most of my relationships. I give up caring after awhile. And, with the man who not just think to themselves "I will get attention and especially sex from somewhere else when she is not at my command," but verbally say it. (Amish Jim assumption).
Speaking of him, he is already one to not pursue. Yet, he seems to come in my life occassionaly but not seen in person. I don't understand it. It is on the rocks with how I feel about him personally. I havn't forgotten about what he said even though it was a couple of years ago. He insulted and cheated on me to digitally to my face. I take it to a high enough level where I would consider it verbal/sexual abuse.
Then, there is Jim Carrey. I have so many happy thoughts of him. He is definitely out of my league, but even a cat brings a smile to my face. A lot of confusing cats at that. I didn't think a lot when I saw his foodstamp at Red's a couple of years ago. It was when I was awakened to a lot of attention, but to think that he would be seriously interested in me is something that I would think of as impossible. There could still be plenty of other matrix connections, but I really did enjoy this movie:
It is definitely something I should see again.
But, I am also suspicious of this ridicule:
I know he is a comedian and role-playing a masochist making fun of the butch girls. I know it was also made years ago when I was still very young.
I am adjusting more to being seen as manly/transvestite. I think some qualified scientists say I'm not really a transvestite, but even if I were, I could still accept it. It was only when I was in college that I began to be treated as one. My sister and I were both dating assholes at the same time. (I don't really think that Josh is dead and wouldn't try to piss on his grave even with how much I hate him.) I've been Hairy all of my life but again, it wasn't until college that I became more hairy. I wouldn't be surprised if Josh and Andrew somehow conspired with a chemist to make me that way. Or, I wouldn't be surprised if it was due to a lot of adrenaline rushes that they have brought upon me with their own gangsterism, threats, shocks, and personal terrors. My sister and I are vulnerable, and were vulnerable at the same time. I was completely on my own in Oklahoma, my sister was still in MD being abused and I wasn't wise enough at the time to know how to be involved in her life the right way. For the sick perverts who are always trying to ruin my rep, it has nothing to do with "WV incest." I also wasn't wise enough to know how cats worked and that even Josh from WV could have been Josh from OK's cat at the same time using me to make Katie paranoid and it was something that I completely missed.
I did try to get lazer treatment, but I do wax on a regular basis. It is embarassing, but I've lived with it for several years now.
Anyway, I felt the need to put a little more word in with the transvestite issue.
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