There is someone who is talking to me, but I really do not know.
The one who I have the biggest hunch for is so difficult to answer.
I know he is married and has kids.
Maybe they have a mutually swinging lifetsyle that is of no worry or question, but I have always felt awkward in the depths of some relations with married men.
I flirt to an extent, but when I think it gets too far, it just doesn't feel right, even though I am definitely attracted and interested.
I know I ran into a little trouble about a year ago with Jon S, but he was being pretty heavy with me. I have moved on regardless of whatever rumors go around, but there was a connection and aggression that I could not walk away from.
This current man feels less controlling although he is still predator-like. I don't know him enough to know how to take him. I'm not sure what he is after. I do not want to bring extra drama in my life if his family is not the swinging type.
In my uncertainty with the type of guy he is, it brings additional uncertainty I feel about myself. I'm still pretty upset. I don't think about relationships much with anyone and all I tend to focus on is my own personal upkeep, savings, replenishment, and rebuilding.
I can't say that I would call him a taker, but in my experience, I have doubts that I would be better off after some sort of fling or affair was finished.
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