I did get a job. I start this coming up week. I went to Millicents today to try to be a little more social. I'm going to be learning some new knitting skills soon.
Today has been a productive day overall: I have continued with a good bit of crafts, exercised, and did a little bit of cleaning.
Now, in my history with men, let's be honest: it is one horrible history. I hate that it causes so much bickering and arguments with the esteem issue. I really like to keep things personal, but it usually isn't personal.
It is hard for me to assume the best of people period. It is hard for me to think that there is no hidden agenda and everything is peaches and cream.
I got a text today where it might be obvious enough and if I were to give him the benefit of the doubt in the most positive way I could, it is still difficult for me to think of it being as very sincere:
~He is thinking to himself: Sarah you just need a hug!~
He is thinking in a more realistic manly way: I can't say exactly what happened to this witch, but this witch is pissed. I'm going to have to literally be a kiss up and tamer to prevent any further destruction:
(I didn't make the photo comment, but he doesn't even look like a loser.)
Personally, I think it could be a karma game/ challenge to my character concerning business and relationships. (It still is not technically a real job.) I can't even use him as a real reference. I can't use anyone as a real reference. Some crazy game that I obviously do not get.
I can't help but think though that he is most likely some sort of Tom cat in disguise.
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