David: The Ongoing Game

Where do I begin on this one? I'm sorry that I once again have to say "I'm sorry," for another small cheat. Sometimes, I am out to have fun or be expressive in whatever way and I really don't always mean to lead a man on and I seriously wasn't meaning to lead Tom on in this most recent instance. LIKE YOU'RE NOT CHEATING AND STILL PLAYING THE GAME WITH ME. You've led me on long enough and have been in my head enough WHERE I DO COUNT IT AS CHEATING. You initially have given me the impression you seem to be more in a more serious objective than having a player's objective. Although I feel like I'm fading into you more, you still don't completely have my trust because of the way you are keeping me played with 2 other women that I can see. ...... I am picking up on your personal 50 shades of gray dominance in the head and as long as it is only about our sex and jealousy, I am mostly comfortable and fine with it thus far. It hurts some when you keep me turned on so much and I know I don't completely trust you. You're not convincing me of your love enough...... About the whole transvestite remark: It offends me. I am not going to be laying my life down for transvestites in general because I fear being called prejudiced. It offends me when people want to treat me or say I have the characteristics of a man. It makes me feel like an ugly freak. I know I saw the Scarlett character in minions and the sellout transvestite fan she had because that's just how much "he loved and obsessed over her." Whether or not you know how under dogged by Jon I was in being called a transvestite I was under dogged that much and mostly because I knew he knew I wasn't going to suck it for him in the most extreme way if my life depended on it. To me, it looked like an under dogging gang rape. If it was a minions scene and your 50 shades of gray punishment and crack of the whip, I can get over it. BUT I'M NOT FORGETTING JUST HOW LOUD YOU WERE ABOUT CALLING ME A TRANSVESTITE. You're not being loud enough with your love for me in another way. I am keeping watch over your volume of love and hate and how it looks not just to me but in front of everyone else. If you keep staying loud with the way you want to humiliate me and not loud enough with your love, I AM NOT GOING TO STICK AROUND. I can't stand being under dogged like that any more and just because you are a more worthy Don Draper doesn't mean that I will let you get away with it. This roller coaster love game is starting to take a toll on me. I hope you put me out of my misery more than what you have soon because I can't stand being too distressed. Woo me and convince me into you more. xoxo