Land Bought

David, where do I begin? I guess I'll start on your end..... I saw the Back to the Future hint. While being the voice of "Stuart," was something I could guess, I wasn't sold on that idea until further pushed into it. I saw the other actor too. What a loud way to confirm you're really in my mind. The dominance of it can be so scary and intimidating at times..... I don't always know what to believe. Some visuals and talk in my head is something I've always questioned. What to believe, how much to believe, and is it really coming from a certain person? I have a feeling that Parkinson's disease is a made up disease where it is more about some sort of nuclear (would warfare be a correct way of putting it)? I don't always remember some messages in my head. How fair, reasonable, official, and set in stone are some conversations really? Is it fair or right to treat it as normal conversation or a real official relationship? Do you understand what I'm trying to get at?.........Stewart. shaking my head, Stewart. I will always see him as a violently judgmental, prejudiced, foul-mouthed man who was way to extreme of a pig and cold blooded man to ever comprehend just how cold-blooded he was. He is on my bad side in the most extreme way for life. Although I feel somewhat betrayed with you by this; I don't understand why I don't feel seriously and extremely betrayed by you. I still have a sense of trust and comfort in you. I know you can get dominate and on the violent side without me understanding your violence or just how violent you are.... You look like you pick me more when it comes to "bro's before hoes." I am relieved about it. I need you. ... You and me in terms of relationships. I really don't know how much I am being played by you. It isn't that we don't have any kind of acknowledged relationship. I've noticed the other acknowledged relationships and it is making me flip. You haven't come across as too much of a juggernaut or chauvinist yet. I know the big celebrity you are, and the way it is, the more famous and rich of a celebrity, the more impossible it feels. It is easier to expect a certain level of faithfulness out of a man at certain periods of time with some men more than others. I hate getting stuck on a man where it feels like his faithfulness will never be possible. I just can't stand the heartache of it. I've had to withstand some heartache for so long already and I hate the way I feel I can never get a break to have a normal and faithful relationship with someone. ................ On my end, like I was telling that one dude from last night when ending up as a stripper, I became a stripper like I don't care. I was too judged, dogged, lied about, and harassed of a person who was pushed over the edge way too much to care about being a dancer. I know we are talking about the chatroom more than the place I work. I honestly don't make that much money in the chatroom. Sometimes, it is my own cheap thrill in seeing how far I can make it in credits and working to earn a higher commission. The bases of comparing the chatroom to the strip club are structured a little different. While there is actual person contact during a lapdance or something; there is no person contact online. There is no real touch. The performers can do a little more than just dance, I know. I also know I have no real or serious feelings for anyone there. I do have some regular customers that I carry regular conversations with. I don't even remember everyone, and with all the other performers, I'm sure they won't always remember me. While it isn't always a lot of money, it is a little extra money outside of the club. We're not playing games with each other as much anymore and you're going in for more land. The more serious it is, the more different of an outlook and available approach I have. I guess if you could watch me on it, you're not thrilled at the idea of other mostly men watching me with you... (looking down). I'm sorry David, I never meant to threaten you. I was just trying to make a little extra. I am going to be mad if you never come around after becoming more possessive. I am going to be mad if you continue to lead me on if you have no further agenda or intentions. If I do believe you are starting to cheat on me, or continue to cheat on me more, I may cheat back by getting back on it. I guess it depends on you and what it is you seriously want. You have a piece of my monopoly board bought on this one. I will buy it back if I think you are cheating. ..... Until then, I guess I'm going to have to let myself feel a little more taken of a woman. I have plenty of magazines to read.