Random thoughts

Back to just my life personally......
The baby's birth is coming soon. I have less than a month to go and am so anxious and excited. I basically have everything I need. My room is almost ready for the baby. Anxious over the to do list I havn't checked yet, but getting prepared day by day at leisure. And this instance isn't a rude leisure of course. I have yet to make a baby cd. She has been kicking a lot and her kicks are getting a little harder. Not too painful but I feel so stretched. Although I feel I've gained a good bit of weight; I feel like my body is too small or skinny and I should have put on a few more pounds prior to being pregnant to be more body ready. I'll probably lose weight quicker though with how I am now after the pregnancy; I just feel so stretched.

With the tax money I got back; I do have some kind of relief in my life. Not a huge difference but still a little bit of relief. I think I've made up my mind with how I'm going to spend the rest too. I really do hope I have better luck finding a job when I start looking for work again. I still continue with crafts on the side.
And speaking of........ I have finished making a brand new bag design. I really don't care whether or not I copy another bag pattern, but this bag I can say I put together on my own. Only the frame of the structure didn't turn out right. I'm thinking of figuring out if I could put some kind of wiring or cord in it to give it better form, or some other strategy where the form looks like it is supposed to. I'm making one more just like and think I will try a different technique to this one where maybe the finished form won't look as bad. After these two bags, I'm probably just going to make a few more pricier and detailed ones before I start making an inventory of cheaper stuff. I've decided to drastically reduce prices with some crafts and have already figured out new crafts to make with reduced prices as well. It is a new experiment that I hope works out. I'm also not going to make too many of the crafts from last year that didn't sell. I'll probably have drastically reduced prices as well and if the supply and demand ever goes up enough; I just might try some of the crafts again. I'm learning my own personal business experience through time.
I'm also excited because I have decided that I am definitely going to sign up for a festival in the fall. I havn't decided which one yet. I had made a list before of ones that I would be interested in and it had actually turned out to be a large list. I still have one local festival besides the flea markets, but I will probably go out of town this year and try other ones. That will be a learning experience too: which festivals will work and which won't. I still know its not enough to have out of a living and I really do hope I find a job. If I end up really going for being a stripper if too much time runs out and I get desperate; then I just may have to do that. I still havn't figured out how I'm going to work out a plan. I just hope I find a job.

In other thoughts..... nothing is really new. I did sign up for a local running team and have been anxious to hear some news back from them. I probably won't run a marathon until June, but it is another thing to be anxious about and look forward to. ~The Queen City Striders~ That name was interesting to learn especially with the "Ain't nobody going to break my stride song." I don't know if they really got that name from the song, but sometimes it is a nice pumped up self talk song. I still like the song but I won't be in denial about the communism and tyranny that I've really lived in. I'll eventually find more pumped up songs.