Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Anderson

Man Anderson, I feel I am constantly in some death trap or matador stadium with you. What is your problem? How am I pissing you off? How can I make you stop?
This is more about the end of your show. The beginning? Another anorexic moment of mine if anything is supposed to be directed at me. Anorexic to the drama and whatever is really going on. I would assume it would be another person's agenda to want to make me feel sexually insecure.

Anyway, the later half of your show. I don't see it the way you see it or whoever is drawing the picture that way. It was a couple of years ago when I had a share/foodstamp on another show that was about "dating and couples therapy." I was "The Love Therapist," where it wasn't about JUST sex. Anyway, in sharing my personal opinions and present views at the time to what my ideals of a relationship are, I think some people probably took that out of control as well. I'm sure you know how predictable it is for women to be catty with each other and even men. People do not like to be told what to do and that includes even me not liking to be told what to do. Sometimes, I do share some ideals of what I think personally and it is only ideals. Other times, I share some thoughts and opinions that sometimes include others, but mostly just what I think of a guy that I could have a fling with. How dare I have my own personal ideals? How dare I have any kind of a say or my own personal perspective of what I thought of a person or the relationship to the person? In recent times, I could call myself more of an "iso," where I get some caveman and stockholm vibes that really do violently and threateningly insinuate: "How dare me?" I may not always know why, I've already said your stockholm is giving me some clueless threatening vibes.
One of my main mottos really has been: "opinions are like assholes, everyone has one." It seems easier said than done and that it isn't a motto of what reality really is. I think some people and their drama have the louder realities than: "we all have assholes." I know I can write my own "soaps," of "As the Sarah Turns," but I can confess that I can be a drama queen. The control factor is something that I have never had a lot of control of anyway.
I feel like there are a number of people who could be saying things about me to you and you make me feel so defenseless sometimes.
Anyway, I just didn't like how in the mistress label, after a number of years, "I lived to tell people how to be in relationships." I have an idea of a possible share of the legal prostitute whose real name isn't mentioned. Have you not caught on to her continued own personal paranoia and wanting to compete with being "the therapist," and telling others how to be in relationships? It isn't only the delusion that is believed by her that I think "I'm the queen and dictator of all relationships," she competes to say "No, she is the queen and dictator of all relationships." Can you not see how desperate, overassumptive/delusional, and ridiculously controlling she is?
Besides that being my main point, is back to the focused main point of her title in being a "prostitute." I really was surprised to learn today that there is a such thing as legal prostitution in the U.S. This was the first time that I have ever heard of it. I'm guessing that only certain states have it, and I guess since Nevada is "sin city," something must have been so out of control or something where it has been legalized. I don't know of other states, but I was surprised that something like that was actually made legal. As for her personally? I've already had my main opinion in the previous paragraph. If I have been "married," and she further wants to compete and make me jealous, I really don't care. I've been anorexic to so much B.S. this whole time and already know I am ignored that I don't care. I really don't know the details of her history. She is obviously seeking attention or maybe she is in a death trap along with me that you put us in. It looks more like she is the one who is going the distance for herself to "be queen and dictator of all relationships." She really is in it alone. I don't know all of her detailed past or present. I don't see her perspective in my eyes at all; I have a totally different perspective that she has no business in even trying to have any authority or control with it. She is on her own in going the distance for herself. I've already had my disappointments in the ways that I have been reduced to nothing and subjected to a number of different women. This really is no different story, just another desperate attempt of someone who wants to entitle herself to "own" me.
You may have more info, but there is a lot to this picture that I just may not see right now other than what stage you are setting.

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