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There is some light heartedness but mostly perplexed frustration with me today................

I really did say my life is like Lord of the Flies. While the world still feels psychotic, the atmosphere of so many psychos is changing into a new form. It is not as quiet or psychotically and sickly neglectful, it is psychotically and sickly a little more directive. Even outside of the U.S. If I were to die, I would still say that I am priceless and nobody is worth my death..............

I'll start with the Parade magazine with the straight forward full name of "Sarah Letts Smith." It is almost as if it sounds like the military is one big group on the list of psychos that really want to have a violent go with me. It isn't presented in a humorous way either although the level of seriousness can be questioned. They would obviously already know about my pregnancy and they already show they don't give a crap that I'm pregnant to have a fight with me. I can only guess at military issues with what I've seen.......
Permissable discrimination: I'm sure I'm not the only person who is affected by it, but in my personal instance, my body is supposedly not perfect enough even to have a minimum wage job.
Permissable subjectivity: I think it got more defined over time in dealing with corporations and the special interests of corporations. It is their side to say that special interests of the wealthy should be over common law both locally and nationally including ammendments.
Amongst the abuse itself of permitting the wealthy to subject people and make those people their slaves are the specific ways and abuses that they get subjected over. Abuse is already broken down into subcategories. The specifics of each category is further broadened throughout each trail. Summed up, it is extreme violations against human rights and humanity varying to levels and degrees of violation.

I have stood up against both of these issues on several occassions.

So, how am I the badguy? let me guess
-When I give eye for an eye with death threats (I have never made any official blue prints of a large plan to make revenge on one person or a large group of any sort) I've had gossip and found ways to break out of some stockholms for my own free speech. Some people obviously havn't given up on thinking I think like a typical victim would.
~How dare I~
-When I talk to other countries or various people online. (Sometimes I'm not even the initiator but fearless in my personal limits to go to the limits of my own adventure/exploration/curiosity.)
~How dare I~
-When I speak any sort of truth
~How dare I~
-When my actions and words are either negligent or warring against the breadwinners of the nation.
~How dare I~

As for the rest of the guesses with the military, I really don't know what their real issues with me are if they deny what my guesses are. (I already know for myself the real truth of some things).

Jon is getting louder in my world. I get confused in the matrix still. Sometimes, I'm confused as to who I'm really talking to and who the credit is given to if I am denied of saying who I think I'm talking to or where I would want my words to go. While there are a lot of things fuzzy and not clear on my radar, I get a little more in shock about the mystery of some serious experiments in the mind and brain. It is a wierd belief in some sort of thing that seems more fiction than nonfiction. I do not agree with some things that are being said but the confirmation of specific people and some specific conversation is shocking and it is hard to try to comprehend or know exactly for sure what to believe about some people. So much going on at once which makes it impossible for me to do much about anything. I will say how angry I literally am with putting words in my mouth about abortion. For now I'm quiet about other things. I'm curious over numbers of issues and people. I'm not a victim. I don't have much else to say with Jon right now. .....

This seriously offends me:

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/11/06/magazine/martin-scorseses-magical-hugo.html?_r=1&smid=tw-nytimes&seid=auto

I know Sacha is a comedian but I fucking don't give a fuck. Making up psycho fantasies or threats like that is something that even shouldn't be fucking fucked with. Fucking psycho. I guess at some time or another I got on his bad side. Just because I laughed in his last movie doesn't mean I was being serious. I DO HAVE SOME OF MY OWN INSIDE JOKES THAT HE FUCKING ALREADY KNOWS FOR HIMSELF AND FUCKING TWISTS IT IN HIS FUCKING CORRUPT WAY. FUCKING FUCKTARD.
(If my baby was a boy, one of the name options was Hugo).
This article was written by John which is another name confusion. The last paragraph goes to him as well that is before this paragrapth that I wrote. Is the baby's father really hitting on Kate Middleton or my sister? It is difficult to translate. He can get desperate and throw a fit all he wants, he is only wasting his time. It bothers me that more men aren't standing in some other men's ways of relentlessness and desperation of me to be in submission to whatever woman of his choice is. I think it is one sick thing that people purposefully neglect after I have said no time after time. What is it anyone is trying to prove? Why won't they give up at my constant refusals? Why is this sadism and serious violence being ignored? Why do people taunt and obsess over domination games that never have and never will mean anything? Why do people not see the childish behavior in it all for what it is?
AHEM NEW YORK AHEM
AHEM
AHEM

Seriously, if some people are that savagely desperate for taboo entertainment against humanity, screw PETA and choose cockfighting instead. No, I'm not afraid of more animal harassment of so many sorts and agendas either when I say obviously and boldly that: "human beings should be put before animals." Of course the harassment wouldn't deserve my time if I were forced to be subjected to it.

~In other thoughts~
I am going to give myself a small brag today that I received a large handout/donation in my crafts and business. It isn't authentic as my handmade crafts but still, it is going to be a good money maker. I'm so happy and excited.
~Shaking a pillow~
(I'm not being literally serious with the song. When I sell pillows, it isn't insinuating that I'm being any sort of hooker or serious sexual insinuation. I'm literally selling pillows).