To Do

I could really make a lifetime out of a to do list. This is probably one of the more boring blogs because it is about my personal little world. I was thinking of some past goals and still have them in mind depending on how time and money goes. Speaking of, I am so happy and relieved that I finally have a job. While this job may cause some new stress in my life, I won't have to worry about a lot of the old stress and depression. I will do everything in my strength to keep this job as long as I can. Keeping some other thoughts to myself about finally having a steady income...
With just today, I have accomplished quite a bit of my to do list, but it isn't completely done yet. I need to work on some more crafts. I did get a good hike in today. It was so humid out and hotter than I expected. I am still aching. I think that was one of the toughest workouts I've had to do in awhile even though it was just a long distance walk. I experimented with a new meal today. I'm happy that it turned out well. I think if I had more ingredients and it was all in equal proportion, it would have been better, but it still turned out pretty good. Too much pasta. I'll have enough leftovers to last.
I'm mad that I can't go to the flea market tmw. I need as much spare money as I can get. I have one of the bigger festivals coming up in just 2 weeks and I want to make as many thinks as I can, but am more limited with money for supplies. Because I have a job, I will probably look into going to another festival in November. Hopefully I will be able to find one where someone will be lenient with the deadline. Usually, you have to plan months in advance. Matter of money.
My parents are on vacation for this entire week. It is a little nice to have the house to myself. Well, my sister is here too.
While the relationship has continued to be dysfunctional and abusive, I can't help but tear up sometimes. I continue to grow more cold-hearted because they leave me no choice with the way they abuse and make effort to control me. They both said, "I love you," in such a sincere way before walking out the door for their vacation. I think as they are aging, they are also dealing with more health problems and I can't help but have some pity for them. While they correlate with being one of my Gadaffi's, they are still my parents that I have a little bit of a heart for.
It looks like there is still a big road ahead of me. Or maybe instead of a big undiscovered road, the environment will be a blinded Gadaffi camp. Some people want to kill me or just harass me to death. Some people want to make such a persuasive suicide speech for me to fulfill. I have to watch for the lifeboats and if there would ever be a such thing as a new safer environment. I wonder if my life will always be rigged due to the special interests of the wealthy class.
While some people are so anxious and on edge of my love interests, right now my mood swing is not sweating it. I don't mind being single. A depression may hit me on occassion, but right now, finding someone is on the backburner. I have my own priorities that some people want to control and manipulate for the sake of their own comfort.
I think that is all that is on my mind for now. Back to crafting.........

Big Tymers, it has been real and it has been real fun. I'll probably still listen to this on occassion because I like the sound and the tune itself:



I think this is actually a wierd video and a funny connection, but yay for working.
We can't forget working now can we? Unfortunately, sometimes it isn't in anyone's control. But glad I can find work for now. Forget the ho's: the man-ho's. Again, not all lyrics match, it is the gist of being content to have a job.