Perplexed

ONE OF THE KEYS ON MY COMPUTER STILL ISN'T WORKING. OH WELL.
THOUGHTS FOR TODAY? NOT A WHOLE LOT REALLY. I'M GOING TO HAVE TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I'M GOING TO BE DOING WITH MY BUDGET AND BOREDOM IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF MONTHS BECAUSE WINTER KNITTING SEASON IS PRETTY MUCH DONE. I CAN ALWAYS LEARN NEW THINGS, BUT THEN THERE IS THE BUDGET.
MISSING OUT ON BLACK FRIDAY TODAY ISN'T TOO KILLER.
THOUGHTS OF YESTERDAY. A LOT OF DIFFERENT EMOTIONS THROUGHOUT THE DAY. I LET MYSELF HAVE A SMALL SPLURGE FOR MY OWN SAKE. SOME THOUGHTS TO MYSELF AND SOME TO VENT AT ANOTHER TIME. THIS IS THE THIRD YEAR IN A ROW THAT I HAVE SPENT THANKSGIVING ALONE TO MYSELF. BESIDES MY PERSONAL STRICT BUDGETING IT REALLY ISN'T THAT BAD. I TOOK MYSELF TO SEVERAL PLACES DURING THE DAY. OMG I AM SO EXCITED THAT A NEW MISSION IMPOSSIBLE IS BEING MADE. WITH DIFFERENT THINGS THAT GO ON IN THE MEDIA WITH TOM CRUZE, MISSION IMPOSSIBLE IS STILL TOO MUCH OF THE SHIT FOR ME TO LOSE MY FANHOOD OVER HIM.
I SOMETIMES LIKE FOOTBALL. IT WAS A LITTLE ENTERTAINING. BEFORE THAT, I SAW TWILIGHT. IT REALLY IS FRUSTRATING IN CHOOSING ANYTHING ANYMORE WHICH INCLUDES MOVIE CHOICE IN THIS INSTANCE. IT VARIES IN COMPLEXITIES AND SIMPLICITIES OF WHATEVER CHOICES. STILL, I HATE HOW MUCH SOME STALKERS BREATHE SO HEAVILY OVER ME AND MAKE THEIR OWN ASSUMPTIONS AND GLARES. IT IS LIKE A CAREER CHOICE OR LIFE OR DEATH DECISION OVER IT. I HAD SEEN THE PREVIOUS TWILIGHT MOVIES. I'VE SEEN THE PREVIOUS HARRY POTTER MOVIES AND I THINK TO SOME EXTENT THAT AND TWILIGHT CAN BE COMPARABLE IN THEIR OWN WAYS. I THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD MOVIE. I HAD MY OWN PERSONAL LAUGHS TO MYSELF WHILE WATCHING THE MOVIE. IN LATER OBSERVATIONS ....
I WAS AT A LOSS OF WORDS WITH SOME FLYING INFO THAT I OBSERVED LATER. I STILL FEEL IN A STATE WHERE I'M FRESHLY PERPLEXED, SURPRISED, AND SHY. I'M PARANOID TOO. I'M NOT JUST PARANOID WITH WHAT I DON'T KNOW BUT PARANOID ABOUT MYSELF AND TENDENCIES TO BE A FUCKUP IF I SAY SOME THOUGHTS ASSUMPTIONS OR GUESSES OUT LOUD. LIFE HAS BEEN HELL AND TOUGH AND I WANT TO BE VULNERABLE AND IT WOULD BE FAIR TO LET MYSELF BUT THERE IS THE "BUT" THAT HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE ENDLESS.
I MAKE OTHER OBSERVATIONS WITH A FEW OTHER PEOPLE AND I GET A LITTLE CONFUSED AND PERPLEXED WITH WHAT IS COMPLETELY GOING ON IN THE WORLD AROUND ME. SOMETIMES MAKING EFFORT TO KEEP MYSELF INFORMED DEPENDS ON MY OWN LEISURE, SPONTANAITY, PREDICTIONS AND INTUITIONS ABOUT PEOPLE. SOMETIMES I JUST WOULD RATHER NOT KNOW. IT VARIES.
ONE RANDOM PIECE OF GOOD NEWS IS THAT WE HAVE A FREE MOVIE CHANNEL ON MY TV FOR THE WEEKEND. I'M ALREADY A LITTLE BUSY WITH SOME MADE-TO-ORDERS BUT I HAVE ANOTHER OPTION TO BEAT THE BOREDOM. I DO LIKE TV AND MOVIES SOMETIMES, BUT OTHER TIMES IT IS IN THE PILE OF CABIN FEVER AND I WANT TO GET OUT. KEEPING MYSELF BUSY AND CALM THE REST OF THE EVENING.