Isolation

So, I'm not putting the biggest Muslim on Oprah or much blame on her for blocking my twitter account. I'm sure she isn't the one who is the tweet reviewer. When things happen in my Bollywood and Burmuda, they do. As much as I hate the way my life gets set up to be intentionally raped with regulation, I don't expect social media groups to have access to everything with everything regulated. … I really do have a lot of appreciation for Twitter in making me feel I have a little bit of a voice in the world. Even though I feel I get ignored often; I at least know I did something about my tree falling in the forest and still making a noise. I like facebook some but it isn't my main social media outlet. I really live in a paranormal planet. Speaking of, it was nice to have some acknowledgment with the Louisville mascot and someone knowing Muir plays too dirty... I don't mean to add more insult to injury with the way he looks like the mascot. I've considered something he said a serious beating and I've already taken more than enough of a beating. When people don't want to listen; when people don't want to stop, I just shrug my shoulders guiltlessly with the punches I hate I had no other choice to give. Whether or not I made him cry or feel injured, take that. It's so sadistically sick with the way some wife beating men will intentionally make me cry for my respect. I'm going to let it go a day or two to delete my tweet to get my account back. I want to keep my knife held in just a little longer with how much I mean I hate his rapist actions and threats. I really don't know how to this day I get thrown into Bollywood and whether or not a man makes a choice or someone chooses someone for me. I know there is some entity who can oversee some things that happen. I would guess it to be the military or a wealthy person who controls some militancy. Anyway, I don't understand why I keep getting outnumbered with the same similar sexual assaults. I hate the way I get cornered and hurt. Why am I not protected from some people enough? I've felt extremely hated on and hurt in some particular ways for a long time and I will never understand why I have always been treated to such an extreme long brutality and totalitarianism. While I believe I have some strangers in the world who know what it means to walk in a two way street with a consensual and more of a fair chance for each other, there is a dominance- sometimes strange, that won't stop standing in my way. I don't know who keeps controlling the brutality but I really hate whatever it is that keeps forcing me to take the same worst blows. While I can't prove how severely battered and stockholmed of a person I am, I know I still am. I feel I could just naturally die sometimes but I can't stand the thought of Mitzi being left alone. Someone should have kept their rapist and arrogantly vain "master" (sarcasm) mouth shut a long time ago but they never stopped and they never will. I hate that someone won't stop forcing the worst despair into my life. I don't like putting thoughts like this out on facebook because I need a real professional and not random or closer and direct people I need to be heard from. I just can't stand something about the way I am being isolated right now. I can take it better sometimes more than others but right now I am way too on edge....