On your toes for me?

Are you emotionally listening to me by taking 20 steps back of being fatherly to me? ~swoon~ Yeah, that recent video clip was some kind of sign. I can and can't live up to that brief message. I just have my days and everyone has their days. I'm not looking to bicker or criticize you or anyone in particular: with me it is about being real and having a free emotional expression. It isn't fun to be around people who are constantly negative or in the dumps, but the people who stay positive too much I find to be annoying. It isn't that I would ever force someone to let me in, but sometimes the ones who are positive too much don't look like they always have the best grip on reality. They sometimes seem a little fake like they are obligated or in fear to look or act as if they are the most happy. I don't like the "most happy" ones who push me around because I'm not the most upbeat and like there must be something wrong with me because I'm not always bouncing off the walls. Have you ever seen the movie "Bubble Boy" with the "bright and shiny" cult? It's the newer old one. …. yeah boat 15. I've had these awful ugly souls of a demon seem to be severely and dominantly predatory with me for some long time. The demon of Wade Hayes of the father of the "virgin suicides" of Calvin all rolled into one wanting me to die a miserable death in a lonesome Stockholm basement. Django's "Calvin". The demon Father Wade Calvin will pose as not having a clue about whatever it is to know better because just like the devil he lies and has the worst fugly denial. A slight edit of a swear word but that Father Wade Calvin makes me so angry sometimes with the way he covers his crime and treats his crimes like its no crime at all. The lying devil... Oh boat 15 you will have to strengthen me and give me more sight if you carry that one's demon. Of course that isn't what the devil would do, but I can trust you to be more than the devil right? Please don't tell me Father Wade Calvin was your intention of making me CRINGE?? As much as I need you to be my missionary we could have a same conflict of neediness of a missionary. The song "cringe" just sounds like nothing but a cry for help. I'm sorry you could be someone who could be more obvious to guess at. …. My other thought. I really don't know what you could be getting at with the last tweet when you talk about unfairness. A person can only take so much boat 15 and I need you to have some sensitivity to that too...Passing the test and doing the right thing and God will make it up to you... (it's almost like you will have a share with god and treat yourself to your manipulative complex) You making fun of me with the way I was always making fun of men like you? lol Well boat 15, I don't understand what test and whatever it is to pass your test and I can't make promises with whatever is the test and whatever is passing. If you wanted me to do something, you aren't making it clear at all what it is you want me to do at this time. (right now is the moment you can make me up with a blow up doll). Boat 15, it is mean to give someone a false hope and make them believe they are loved enough and will have a tangible and real relationship when it will never happen. It is mean if you belong to that team AND IT IS SOMETHING THAT YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER THAN TO GIVE SOMEONE A FALSE HOPE. PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW BETTER THAN TO NOT JUST LIE BUT LIE WITH SUCH A SERIOUS HUMILIATION AND DESTRUCTION TOWARDS A PERSON. Boat 15, if you know there is something you know you should know better than, THAN I HOPE YOU ACT LIKE YOU KNOW IT AND KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO ACT LIKE YOU KNOW. For goodness sake, if you mean to be an intentional joker to me, what did I ever do to you? You that mad in whatever way I shot you in the crossfire with Tom?