This is more of a brain storm than anything. I can't see exactly where the interrogation is coming from or know exactly who everyone is that is involved. I wish I had more confirmations and explanations. I wish I had a lot more information than what I have to work with.
This is part of a brainstorm and part of key people. A bridge cannot be officially crossed without me knowing the specific information to give an official answer.......
Which lady do I want to start with?
I have seen some catty info going around the digital world. I am appreciative of Tyra in having a good stance up against however many a number of the Kate's and Katie's of the matrix.
I took a little bit of a further glance today and it is starting to clash.
I am not answering to my sister or any Kate whatsoever, this is between the interrogator and I. I am also going to have to empathize with Selma Hayek as well. Years ago around 2003 or so, she really did have a good way of brushing me off. The key word is years ago. I do appreciate the support of Selma and Tyra, but I will deny the representation to be officialized of where I am right now.
I don't care how rigged I am, I will never see my mind as being inferior to my sister's. I'm not really after an intelligence contest, this is about possessiveness as a whole. My sister is not the only person who is responsible of wanting to be possessive of me.
Erin Wyer has all the official titles and reality of life with anyone. I don't care how many or what actual contests she wins; I will never be a possession of hers. I will never be subjected to her. There is a possibility that this is life threatening for me to refuse to be her slave. After everything that has happened, I would believe it, and I think it is an awful shame.
If this is about any particular guy in my life, I don't know if this is between the interrogator and I, or whoever the guy is and myself? I don't know which guy we are talking about here. It could be the baby's father. It could be a John who is associated with Erin that I don't know. It could be Jon Stewart. There is a possibility that there could be more guys that I'm up against in this. Again, not all lyrics match me and snowflake philosophy will always be the top frame of my mind. In the game of the sim world, Lily Allen "It's not me, it's you," is the better representative than "Freida Kahlo." (reminder that not all lyrics match).
Yes, I had an emotional breakdown years ago. However to this day, I am not responsible for everything I have been buried under since then. I am not responsible for the greed, corruption, and slave laboring agendas that other people have put forth. There are so many things that I am not responsible for at all. I may have some information that is unconfirmed or that I don't know about; BUT I AM NOT INADEQUATE IN THE WAY THAT I AM BEING FRAMED OUT TO BE.
On dangerous ground now......... I know I'm not the only one to suffer from depression. I know I'm not the only one who has been made to suffer. Of so many psychological and emotional issues, I have a sick rage of the hypocrisy, one-sidedness, piggishness, denial, and judgemental mentality from others in it all. If I knew who was looking at me, I probably would want to gut out whoever the judge is. It is best to stick with Jared Leto and keep me blinded on this one because this is a rage that I hate to have and would love to get rid of.
I hate that it has to be like this. I hate the idea of bickering to the death and to have to constantly be back to back with whatever number of predators I have in my life. Yes, there already has been a lot of things that I have lost. To whatever person who wants to beat me into submission, I will not accept the Freida sim and I will not accept defeat. I would consider to whatever, "Prince," I have in my life, that it would be a loss and too severe of an unnecessary compromise on my end to give into whatever prince and be the "Frieda Kahlo."
Princes, I will give you some satisfaction, that through the years, I have felt the seduction with the demanding abuse. There is some sexiness, but yes, you really are being too demanding.
I have respect for Selma for understanding the strength in the "Frieda," role and also understand the sacrifice that people sometimes have to make in being loyal. Loyalty and faithfulness are very closely related. They are values to be valued. I am not married to anyone and while I do yearn for someone to have a shared loyalty and faithfulness with as a marriage should be, it is demanding too much from me too soon.
I have not forgotten the heartbreak of how I lost it. It does not define my entire being, my future, or who I am as a person. All it was, was a moment and dark time in my life. Not all lyrics match, but the intensity of the music really reminds me of the times I've been in the hospital. It is serious, it isn't a joke. Sometimes, people don't get the satisfaction that they want. I know I wasn't literally on my death bed at the time, but I know the pain and the effect that it had on my reputation and how people would see me after. Again, this moment does not define who I am.
Where I am today? I have several people that I rock and sing it with. There has been so many inspirational songs that I have acknowledged. Penelope is a good connection with the stranded island for now. I feel damned and not defeated. I am waiting for a lot of things and still going to wait for opportunities in the future.
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