I have always been confused with the system. I still havn't caught on to exactly what the rivalry is with you and Steve, but it looks like you both have a share of Burlusconi. I used to think Steve on SNL this past week looked a little like Richard Roberts. Anyway. I do not understand the Burlusconi system. If I could guess, it would be a large orgy with women where you love them all for a certain and same reason. I question if you represent yourself too, or represent several men. I don't know how far the "orgy" thing would literally go or if it is figurative. People have said that I look Italian, but I do not consider myself part of the culture like that. Anyway, Seth I told you, I am so emotional right now. I can't handle being jealous with so many other problems I have. I can't handle being in the game. It is awkward to be in the game to begin with.
I feel a lot of vibes from you: affectionate, coldness, some undefined anger, some mystery, some lust, and confusion. I watch and observe the system sometimes and notice the physical characteristics including the facial features of people. It can be confusing, and shocking, and almost sci-fi sometimes. I am highly convinced that you can hear and see me personally. I don't know what all you see or how much of me you see or hear. I am a little embarassed. Other times, I don't care. I don't get your complete gist yet, but when you brought up Whitney Houston, I felt you were confirming you can hear me. We aren't on the same page and you still aren't answering my question of how I was relating her to me. Anyway, back to facial features of who you look like.........
Of course you don't look like a literal fox, but I have a hunch of the Disney symbolism with who you are making a connection with. It is depressing. There is a chemistry but it is depressing. I usually don't consider myself very judgemental; right now, I have no other choice. I'm also upset at another possible local connection you could have with someone and if you are sincerely making rips about my body. I know I'm no literal supermodel, but I think you're being unreasonable. I don't know if it is a rejection or what.
With the fox symbol, you seem interested but it also seems I don't have you that much and you may have an agenda that I don't know about and are keeping your loyalties to someone else. I don't even know how many girlfriends you have.
With still having some awared emotions, I don't want it to look like I'm begging while talking to you. I'm not begging. I have some partial apology but not. I don't remember everything that happened in the past with SNL. So much media: shows, movies, magazines, the web. It really is asking too much of me, especially while I have no real job, to expect me to know everything and pay attention to everything. While you are part of a group that isn't new, you as a person are new. There could have been a lot of connections and wiring that you have made that I wasn't paying attention to. Maybe you never tried to make a connection before. I don't know everything I missed out on with you.
I do have a surface level humor with some things on the show, but I don't know how much you and the other writers are going beyond the surface: who is playing the roles. the complete gist of either a person or an entire scene. Sometimes it seems like it is a random conversation out of the blue and beyond the surface, I don't know what the writer is trying to say. I'm not alien to all scenes, but there are some scenes that I really don't know how to take.
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