I did get out a little today when I took a hike and sunbathed. I saw a few usual harassing and stalking foodstamps and spit at them. (I really did). ACC teachers, Denny, and a random couple. I think one day, people will see more truth of what I really think and feel, but I'm usually buried under so many rumors and suffocated by arrogance, no one takes the time to think what I could be thinking. I never wanted my mind to be read all of the time, but if people want to make an issue or complaint with concepts of communes and/or isolation, its something to think about.
There are some random people in the system that I wish I knew more and was in my reach a little better. I wish communication was better, personally between us, clearly understood, a sense of equalness or civility. I want to know some definite names. For the people who like to continuously roll with entertainment, that is the main thing I need a break from. Entertainment does have its own benefits, but I'm tired of relationships that are entertainment. I never made that choice. I don't know why some people still want to take advantage of me in that way. I don't understand how some people could be so heartless to use me like that and leave me poor with unemployment. Some old questions still havn't been answered yet. While entertainment and relationships can be used together; my main complaint is being used in entertainment. Other people may be victims of entertainment along with me, but I'm tired of how it somehow goes with me.
For some clarity, my old neighbor in W.V. Ryan B, no. He was only a neighbor and a friend. I do not want to be in any kind of romantic or beyond friends relationship with him. I'm just not into him like that.
I have a feeling that my life is going back to the usual system and socialism I have been hating and complaining about for the longest time. I think I have another carrot this time ~for motivational purposes~ I'm not necessarily trying to insult him, I'm just fed up with the system and the routine of it all. I have made that complaint even years ago. MIA is still one of my favorite singers to this day. And yes, I have noticed some acknowledgement, but nobody is changing or fixing a damn thing about it in the worst way. Actions speak louder than words. The only actions were to actually acknowledge and announce my scream and make entertainment out of it. There is no tangible change.
As for the recent Dane drama. I'm not asking to be mothered or nurtured by anyone. If anyone dared come close or test me (depending on who it is and predictable motivations of people), I'd punch them in the face or starve them from any satisfaction.
He has stopped making arrogant comments and hasn't really done much to provoke me. In different media, there is a little siding with me to view him as Gadaffi. (When people are for or against me, I still say people are entitled to have their own opinions and thoughts). I don't mind people agreeing with me sometimes. There have been no more names given of the group of predators who are sexually abusing me. I label it as a Russian abuse in that it is a cold war where nobody can be charged or even fairly charged or fought with because there is no fairness or evidence. I'm not even trying to provoke to be tested over it more. I'd still say the abusers deserve to get shot. Someone did mention police brutality, but I don't honestly know if the local police would really do that. How is the justice of it all really taken care of? How could some people know, yet do nothing?
I have been seeing more hints of people, and more hints of crime. It seems with the things that I can't see and where I feel left in the dark, that greed is winning. I just don't know the details. I think there are only bad intentions. It is hard to approach because I am in the dark with a lot of things and feel I am being distracted from the truth with such a chaotic life. Sometimes, there is bribery. Other times, the evil intentions, lies, hate, and chaos of other people happen. While it makes no sense to me, it bothers me that there are a number of people who may be aware of some things, and I hate how my vulnerability of it all gets abused.
I have been thinking about Amish Jim lately. He wants me to. I think he has some sort of agenda going on. My guess is that he has issues that I'm not as dependent as he would want me to be. He has made so many insults and actions of rejection and hate, I don't understand why he would still even act interested or want something from me. Today, the media did have his family talked about. I just don't understand what his persistence is, why he would still want to harass me. Most men usually do end up thinking I'm gay because I'm not dependent or aggressive enough. I simply know when I'm not wanted or where I have been violently rejected and don't understand why I should even question an attraction. It doesn't make much sense to me. Sometimes, I can be a little more persistent with guys who havn't been so violently rejecting or insulting, but I go through periods of giving up and wondering.
I WILL NEVER BEG.
PERIOD.
Maybe he has issues with my pride even though I'm bankrupt. Maybe he thinks the usual systematic thing to do is beg or be aggressively desperate. I just don't. I'm currently denied, but I have had literal foodstamps and unemployment before. I just don't beg. I feel with how life is, it is choking me and violently demanding to beg. Sometimes, I don't even know who wants me to beg to them. I can just tell someone wants me to beg to them. After some things he has already said, and if he was getting jealous or competitive with other men, how could he think he is any different with harassment? If he has this superman or philanthropic mentality, how could he argue? I really did have the hots for him at the time of the fling. He's just been such an asshole; I don't understand what the purpose of his persistance is? More than half the time I don't look if I see a sign somewhere. Other times, I do get curious. He's too distant, so much of an asshole, and there is just too much missing where nothing makes sense. I think he is just another person who wants to B.S. me and mess with my mind.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Can't help but get a predator grip
I wish I knew enough to get a better grip and find ways to do more damage.
I'm angry and I'm so fed up with this shithole life.
So what makes me any different than my other predators who all end up with the Gadaffi label?
I wasn't initially a Gadaffi.
I took so many other choices of action compared to the other Gadaffis.
Gadaffi just won't change, go away, or take no for an answer.
I may have different tactics and moves, but right now, it seems the only thing people have been operating with is violence. Nobody is going anywhere with me, and I can admit that I'm not getting anywhere with anyone either.
I don't think most Gadaffis will ever come to terms with their realities. Instead, they would rather unintelligently rant and ramble and be aggressive to save their own dumb fat asses.
I fucking hate life.
I think right now, all Wisconsin connections are being Gadaffis with "maturity," and it doesn't even matter what I say. "They're the rubber and I'm the glue." I can't wait until a real smart person steps in. I can't wait. I feel so insulted by what I'm forced to lose by.
I have ideas of people who talk. I don't know for sure. It is like losing to a tabloid. People don't even ask. They don't even take the time to get to know me. They don't even test a person with any sort of intelligence. This is such chaos.
Speaking of Wisconsin, I am going to go with some hunches. Amongst so many talkers, I think one of the main ones could be Brandon B. my old neighbor in W.V. In my side of the story to describe his reputation with my own personal experience, he really is a talker. He is a major provoker. I'm really not surprised he is in the military because of all areas to have skills or talent, he is definitely the violent fighting type. I bet he has the most professional skills in making a person's blood boil with provoking techniques. He lives to be under people's skin and piss them off.
Maybe there are other people who use him to test me to see what I would do and test how violent I would react to his violence. not sure. But when it comes to talk, he is another tabloid with the purpose of provoking and pissing people off.
In a side trail with how assumptions are made: Just because a person is capable of pissing another person off, does not mean it is love or even lust. Just because there are reaction potentials doesn't mean anything. It is possible that a variety of people are capable of knowing what makes other people tick and using it as their own corruption or tactics.
I'm sick of Dane and people like him giving themselves so much credit just because they get hateful and aggressive. It is only a tactic of action. I'm fed up with how arrogant people get and how high of a pedastool they put themselves on just because they make aggressive actions. I'm not impresssed, inspired, or even challenged. Violently challenged, but not intellectually, emotionally, spiritually, mentally, etc. challenged. I hate how high of a pedastool some people put themselves on with violence or even sexual violence or sexuality.
Motivated to keep myself from having to put up with it.
People could say I talk too and it is fair to say. But if people really want to take any kind of talk seriously, I am so disgusted at how much it is unprofessionally dealt with. I am so disgusted at how I am treated and that I feel that people don't know me at all. Even if a person did want to be serious and have a discussion in a completely fair way, it is still MY CHOICE whether or not I want to give any info about myself.
I don't see professionalism, I see tabloids and chaos. I also see emotionally reckless and aggressive people who really have no clue what they are doing. They are not in a calm state of being where a job is seriously trying to get done. They are in an emotional state of being where most really can't handle it.
When I exploded, it was years ago. I am so sick of people desperately coming up with the dumbest excuses to make me the scapegoat, victim, underdog, person who is "responsible or to blame."
Sometimes, I can complain about some people being obsessive, micro managing, anal retentive about some things. It is not necessarily meant to be deragatory when I sometimes make complaints. It is meant to say I think some people are a little obsessively psychotic and overboard. I have had moments of sexually offensive talk; sometimes I can't help but take myself to the offensive level of other people. I'm not always strong enough to ignore. But, I wouldn't describe myself as purposefully being sexually offensive on a regular basis. I'm still offended at sexual correlations, assumptions, how some people feel entitled to call the shots in my life and tell me who I'm dating or married to. Even more ridiculous bullshit of specific people or things said. I'm tired of people writing stories of how I feel. gungho for anorexia.
I can own up to my own emotional rants where it is my own personal life and venting where I am outside of a professional environment. IT IS MUCH DIFFERENT.
But, I'm just sick of some people holding grudges the way they do. The list goes on and on with unfairness and double standards. I could talk about it all day. When I hold grudges, I at least make every effort depending on the setting I'm in, in keeping it that way. I don't think it is fair to be fired not just for sexual discrimination or personal issues, but it also isn't fair to be stalked in every place to be set up to fail because a person can't get over it.
As angry as I am, I will not let one of my rules break about controlling people's emotions and telling people how to think or feel about something. People are entitled to have feelings. I'm just sick of being expected to be screwed over for the sake of how someone may feel esp in the workplace. I'm so fucking sick of the riggings, socialism, and corruption. So fucking sick. And still fuck the Bright and Shiny cult.
I have seen several random foodstamps of Robert Kiel. I was in a psychiatric drugged up state of being last time I came in contact with him, so I don't take it so much with what I said to him. He is another person who I think wants to kill me and is obsessed in both being for and against Asians. He is obsessed with knives and excuses to kill people. He has violent, seriously degrading inhumane, victimizing, demonizing, harsh judgement over the "Mo," issue.
I can't think of any other names or people right now.
I'm angry and I'm so fed up with this shithole life.
So what makes me any different than my other predators who all end up with the Gadaffi label?
I wasn't initially a Gadaffi.
I took so many other choices of action compared to the other Gadaffis.
Gadaffi just won't change, go away, or take no for an answer.
I may have different tactics and moves, but right now, it seems the only thing people have been operating with is violence. Nobody is going anywhere with me, and I can admit that I'm not getting anywhere with anyone either.
I don't think most Gadaffis will ever come to terms with their realities. Instead, they would rather unintelligently rant and ramble and be aggressive to save their own dumb fat asses.
I fucking hate life.
I think right now, all Wisconsin connections are being Gadaffis with "maturity," and it doesn't even matter what I say. "They're the rubber and I'm the glue." I can't wait until a real smart person steps in. I can't wait. I feel so insulted by what I'm forced to lose by.
I have ideas of people who talk. I don't know for sure. It is like losing to a tabloid. People don't even ask. They don't even take the time to get to know me. They don't even test a person with any sort of intelligence. This is such chaos.
Speaking of Wisconsin, I am going to go with some hunches. Amongst so many talkers, I think one of the main ones could be Brandon B. my old neighbor in W.V. In my side of the story to describe his reputation with my own personal experience, he really is a talker. He is a major provoker. I'm really not surprised he is in the military because of all areas to have skills or talent, he is definitely the violent fighting type. I bet he has the most professional skills in making a person's blood boil with provoking techniques. He lives to be under people's skin and piss them off.
Maybe there are other people who use him to test me to see what I would do and test how violent I would react to his violence. not sure. But when it comes to talk, he is another tabloid with the purpose of provoking and pissing people off.
In a side trail with how assumptions are made: Just because a person is capable of pissing another person off, does not mean it is love or even lust. Just because there are reaction potentials doesn't mean anything. It is possible that a variety of people are capable of knowing what makes other people tick and using it as their own corruption or tactics.
I'm sick of Dane and people like him giving themselves so much credit just because they get hateful and aggressive. It is only a tactic of action. I'm fed up with how arrogant people get and how high of a pedastool they put themselves on just because they make aggressive actions. I'm not impresssed, inspired, or even challenged. Violently challenged, but not intellectually, emotionally, spiritually, mentally, etc. challenged. I hate how high of a pedastool some people put themselves on with violence or even sexual violence or sexuality.
Motivated to keep myself from having to put up with it.
People could say I talk too and it is fair to say. But if people really want to take any kind of talk seriously, I am so disgusted at how much it is unprofessionally dealt with. I am so disgusted at how I am treated and that I feel that people don't know me at all. Even if a person did want to be serious and have a discussion in a completely fair way, it is still MY CHOICE whether or not I want to give any info about myself.
I don't see professionalism, I see tabloids and chaos. I also see emotionally reckless and aggressive people who really have no clue what they are doing. They are not in a calm state of being where a job is seriously trying to get done. They are in an emotional state of being where most really can't handle it.
When I exploded, it was years ago. I am so sick of people desperately coming up with the dumbest excuses to make me the scapegoat, victim, underdog, person who is "responsible or to blame."
Sometimes, I can complain about some people being obsessive, micro managing, anal retentive about some things. It is not necessarily meant to be deragatory when I sometimes make complaints. It is meant to say I think some people are a little obsessively psychotic and overboard. I have had moments of sexually offensive talk; sometimes I can't help but take myself to the offensive level of other people. I'm not always strong enough to ignore. But, I wouldn't describe myself as purposefully being sexually offensive on a regular basis. I'm still offended at sexual correlations, assumptions, how some people feel entitled to call the shots in my life and tell me who I'm dating or married to. Even more ridiculous bullshit of specific people or things said. I'm tired of people writing stories of how I feel. gungho for anorexia.
I can own up to my own emotional rants where it is my own personal life and venting where I am outside of a professional environment. IT IS MUCH DIFFERENT.
But, I'm just sick of some people holding grudges the way they do. The list goes on and on with unfairness and double standards. I could talk about it all day. When I hold grudges, I at least make every effort depending on the setting I'm in, in keeping it that way. I don't think it is fair to be fired not just for sexual discrimination or personal issues, but it also isn't fair to be stalked in every place to be set up to fail because a person can't get over it.
As angry as I am, I will not let one of my rules break about controlling people's emotions and telling people how to think or feel about something. People are entitled to have feelings. I'm just sick of being expected to be screwed over for the sake of how someone may feel esp in the workplace. I'm so fucking sick of the riggings, socialism, and corruption. So fucking sick. And still fuck the Bright and Shiny cult.
I have seen several random foodstamps of Robert Kiel. I was in a psychiatric drugged up state of being last time I came in contact with him, so I don't take it so much with what I said to him. He is another person who I think wants to kill me and is obsessed in both being for and against Asians. He is obsessed with knives and excuses to kill people. He has violent, seriously degrading inhumane, victimizing, demonizing, harsh judgement over the "Mo," issue.
I can't think of any other names or people right now.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
End of week thoughts
Today was a good and bad day.
Horrible because this is the only day of the week I have a chance of making money and there was a strong forecast of rain, so I never went and didn't make any sales.
Good, because I finished off a website for my crafts anyway to have another route to make some sales.
I'm so mad because the day looked like it was determined to rain with how it has been raining, how dark the sky was in the morning, how the trees looked with the sky if it were going to rain more. It never rained even one drop.
Still, I finished my website.
I was surprised to see a person come out of the blue this week. I see him around every so often. I have a hard time trying to figure out what he is all about. He could definitely be a major puzzle piece. He could also be a new, unfamiliar, and most likely some sort of dark game where he may just be pure hate or something to figure out. I have a feeling that I'm not unfamiliar to him at all. I remember in my diary days several, almost 10 years ago how much I screamed that stalking doesn't count. There is a difference of chemistry in personally stalking someone and interacting person to person.
In recent times, because I've grown numb in a number of ways, and that time can't be erased, and nothing may ever change, Luke isn't the Superman he once was. I'm not necessarily screaming for a white knight, but Luke who comforted me with the 4th ammendment and rights to privacy, just isn't a Superman anymore. He is a hot memory that I treasured at the time. If I were ever to meet Luke in present day, it would be a completley different story and scenario. The subject/bait of privacy just wouldn't be gluey that much. It would be trying to get to know each other in a completely different way. I'm not saying he is or isn't interested. I don't always believe everything I see or know what to believe.
Back to the previous guy. I think I'm going to get around to look around at past things people have said and check out a few shows that have already passed by that I never thought would have anything come about.
It's nice to still see that Carter guy. He usually has a video every single Sunday. I feel I've been given more reason to be egocentric with him and that it is all about me when he has his video postings. Not sure how to completely get him yet. How symbolic his numbering may be, the details, and how he really may be trying to get a message across. I feel a little challenged to up my mosaics a little. It is money issues because I can barely afford my crafting materials. It is also a sense of self-possession because of past grubby people who wanted to tell me how to do my art work. I hate the way it gets complicated when some people observe me and assume and I think its just asking for another oil rig when I have to suffer at the arrogance of other people. I definitely need some sort of new clay or plaster. I think he called it something with an "M." I figured since it is already a decoration, I shouldn't worry so much with what my projects are purposed to be: decoration/art.
I also have a new place that is definitely corporate that I'm interested in applying to. I guess my fear this time is my usual stress and agitation even though it already feels it is siding with me. The agitation is being pigeon-holed and not getting enough breathing room and having assumptions made and words said that I can't do anything about. The typical systematic ways of doing things. If they want to give me a chance, why shouldn't I do the same? I have a list of places I'm going to apply to for tmw.
I always feel overwhelmed even when I don't have a job. So many things to know. Being poor can stand in the way. So many things to be agitated and frustrated with.
I am going to be ok.
Horrible because this is the only day of the week I have a chance of making money and there was a strong forecast of rain, so I never went and didn't make any sales.
Good, because I finished off a website for my crafts anyway to have another route to make some sales.
I'm so mad because the day looked like it was determined to rain with how it has been raining, how dark the sky was in the morning, how the trees looked with the sky if it were going to rain more. It never rained even one drop.
Still, I finished my website.
I was surprised to see a person come out of the blue this week. I see him around every so often. I have a hard time trying to figure out what he is all about. He could definitely be a major puzzle piece. He could also be a new, unfamiliar, and most likely some sort of dark game where he may just be pure hate or something to figure out. I have a feeling that I'm not unfamiliar to him at all. I remember in my diary days several, almost 10 years ago how much I screamed that stalking doesn't count. There is a difference of chemistry in personally stalking someone and interacting person to person.
In recent times, because I've grown numb in a number of ways, and that time can't be erased, and nothing may ever change, Luke isn't the Superman he once was. I'm not necessarily screaming for a white knight, but Luke who comforted me with the 4th ammendment and rights to privacy, just isn't a Superman anymore. He is a hot memory that I treasured at the time. If I were ever to meet Luke in present day, it would be a completley different story and scenario. The subject/bait of privacy just wouldn't be gluey that much. It would be trying to get to know each other in a completely different way. I'm not saying he is or isn't interested. I don't always believe everything I see or know what to believe.
Back to the previous guy. I think I'm going to get around to look around at past things people have said and check out a few shows that have already passed by that I never thought would have anything come about.
It's nice to still see that Carter guy. He usually has a video every single Sunday. I feel I've been given more reason to be egocentric with him and that it is all about me when he has his video postings. Not sure how to completely get him yet. How symbolic his numbering may be, the details, and how he really may be trying to get a message across. I feel a little challenged to up my mosaics a little. It is money issues because I can barely afford my crafting materials. It is also a sense of self-possession because of past grubby people who wanted to tell me how to do my art work. I hate the way it gets complicated when some people observe me and assume and I think its just asking for another oil rig when I have to suffer at the arrogance of other people. I definitely need some sort of new clay or plaster. I think he called it something with an "M." I figured since it is already a decoration, I shouldn't worry so much with what my projects are purposed to be: decoration/art.
I also have a new place that is definitely corporate that I'm interested in applying to. I guess my fear this time is my usual stress and agitation even though it already feels it is siding with me. The agitation is being pigeon-holed and not getting enough breathing room and having assumptions made and words said that I can't do anything about. The typical systematic ways of doing things. If they want to give me a chance, why shouldn't I do the same? I have a list of places I'm going to apply to for tmw.
I always feel overwhelmed even when I don't have a job. So many things to know. Being poor can stand in the way. So many things to be agitated and frustrated with.
I am going to be ok.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Personal Letter
Dane,
I really do understand the art of vagueness. I understand wanting to get a message across but also knowing that some things need to be vague. I am not a fool to the trap of being "delusional," or "delusionally paranoid." Other people may be fooled into seeing it that way.
You are simply at the predator advantage. I don't know how long you have been stalking me. I don't know the initial motive or reason you have to hate me or be so predatory of me. I don't know your whole story.
I question your cattiness of having some shares with either my old Pastor in OK, Bill S, or if you knew me in my younger years with my neighbor across the street Bill? I really feel wierded out right now with where the capitalization rests and is rooted. Who is the ultimate representative? How much of an actor are you? What is it you are trying to say?
I have taken note of the recent piece of news with Jeff the polygamist. I really was never out to judge you or even thought to wonder if you were guilty of raping someone underage in a serious way. While I see so much shit that gets said about me, I really wonder if some karma or matrix man is burying you under rubble and making you vulnerable to bad judgement as I have had to experience. If I had any control over anything that happens, I would be evil and make you suffer the pain of the exploit. Do I believe that you are Jeff the polygamist? I really would have a hard time believing it, but I'm more sold on you have a bad drug habit and are my specific hardcore stalking mysogynist.
As for Bill, the next door neighbor.........???? I do see the sexual abuse in Wilfred. If my old neighbor really is responsible, I would want him to be charged for it. I think people are getting more and more desperate and ridiculous.
As for taking the show? Some scenes are extremely disappointing while other scenes I can't help but laugh. I take the character of "Wilfred,"(Jason) with humor mostly but there is some condescending head nods as well. I question if people are looking at me as "Beth." I have another guess of who they are accusing of Beth, but if they are pointing the finger at me, I'm seriously offended that I'm being lied about.
Anorexic.
Gotta love that boombox.
And a different random thought. I'm not surprised at how you reacted to Louie. You're technically the one to screw him over by stealing some of his jokes and you manipulate the situation into him being the one who is at fault or the bad guy. Yes, you really are taking advantage of your wealth. Are you really going to feel achieved or accomplished later in life with how much of a dog you are? You don't care about buying yourself a name with taking advantage of the fact that you have wealth. My look of judgement really isn't about being a copycat. Most often, I think people get obsessed, ridiculous, and obsessively inadequate when it comes to competition of credit. But some people can be right sometimes when they do accuse another of robbing credit or being the copycat. I do believe some people can have the same feelings about something and sometimes people will even be obsessed with judging others in how they feel. I hate that I get vulnerable to so many obsessed inadequate judges. It isn't about specifically being a "joke thief," it is about you being a dog, being manipulative to beat yourself out of being the loser in your world and taking advantage of your aggression and wealth.
While you may be the bigger predator, and that you'll most likely manipulate me into being the loser and bad guy with the public world, I am taking some notes of the kind of person you are.
I am also being convinced more and more to keep giving up on people and that you are never going to let me go and my life will always be screwed over for what you do and how you manipulate.
I really do understand the art of vagueness. I understand wanting to get a message across but also knowing that some things need to be vague. I am not a fool to the trap of being "delusional," or "delusionally paranoid." Other people may be fooled into seeing it that way.
You are simply at the predator advantage. I don't know how long you have been stalking me. I don't know the initial motive or reason you have to hate me or be so predatory of me. I don't know your whole story.
I question your cattiness of having some shares with either my old Pastor in OK, Bill S, or if you knew me in my younger years with my neighbor across the street Bill? I really feel wierded out right now with where the capitalization rests and is rooted. Who is the ultimate representative? How much of an actor are you? What is it you are trying to say?
I have taken note of the recent piece of news with Jeff the polygamist. I really was never out to judge you or even thought to wonder if you were guilty of raping someone underage in a serious way. While I see so much shit that gets said about me, I really wonder if some karma or matrix man is burying you under rubble and making you vulnerable to bad judgement as I have had to experience. If I had any control over anything that happens, I would be evil and make you suffer the pain of the exploit. Do I believe that you are Jeff the polygamist? I really would have a hard time believing it, but I'm more sold on you have a bad drug habit and are my specific hardcore stalking mysogynist.
As for Bill, the next door neighbor.........???? I do see the sexual abuse in Wilfred. If my old neighbor really is responsible, I would want him to be charged for it. I think people are getting more and more desperate and ridiculous.
As for taking the show? Some scenes are extremely disappointing while other scenes I can't help but laugh. I take the character of "Wilfred,"(Jason) with humor mostly but there is some condescending head nods as well. I question if people are looking at me as "Beth." I have another guess of who they are accusing of Beth, but if they are pointing the finger at me, I'm seriously offended that I'm being lied about.
Anorexic.
Gotta love that boombox.
And a different random thought. I'm not surprised at how you reacted to Louie. You're technically the one to screw him over by stealing some of his jokes and you manipulate the situation into him being the one who is at fault or the bad guy. Yes, you really are taking advantage of your wealth. Are you really going to feel achieved or accomplished later in life with how much of a dog you are? You don't care about buying yourself a name with taking advantage of the fact that you have wealth. My look of judgement really isn't about being a copycat. Most often, I think people get obsessed, ridiculous, and obsessively inadequate when it comes to competition of credit. But some people can be right sometimes when they do accuse another of robbing credit or being the copycat. I do believe some people can have the same feelings about something and sometimes people will even be obsessed with judging others in how they feel. I hate that I get vulnerable to so many obsessed inadequate judges. It isn't about specifically being a "joke thief," it is about you being a dog, being manipulative to beat yourself out of being the loser in your world and taking advantage of your aggression and wealth.
While you may be the bigger predator, and that you'll most likely manipulate me into being the loser and bad guy with the public world, I am taking some notes of the kind of person you are.
I am also being convinced more and more to keep giving up on people and that you are never going to let me go and my life will always be screwed over for what you do and how you manipulate.
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