Pre Talk

I have yet to see the last episode of Apprentice or even watch YouTube.

I've already "been fired," from the show, so no future surprises were really surprising. I feel I am experiencing more provoking and feuding though at the end.

I hate being on bad terms with people, but I feel the need to keep my ground and remain standing.

Extent is the keyword. Job description is another key word. This means that although I may be the loser, I still have boundaries and my own territorial view of myself.
I'm upset, because I think I've already experienced enough Tyranny and extreme issues of control where the word "boundary" seems to never had been read from a dictionary.
I know there is always a structural/systematic rule that was used against me for the fact that I drink and let loose.

It is what both makes me angry and even more disregarding. I am once again being manipulated in how to live my life.
No, I havn't even been to an office party nor even have partied with them outside of work. Setting is the factor. At my literal job, no. I still have yet to figure out this setting. But even at my literal job, I'm mostly anti social and still won't be told how to live my life outside of work.

I am not going to throw drinking and letting loose out the door just because some people want to use that against me for their reason of not being impressed.

I would rather just let them talk and simmer than change myselt to be a people pleaser, conform, or competitively up moral standards and feud over being a black sheep with people. I just don't roll that way. I live my life the way I want. People can be impressed or unimpressed.
After everything I have been through, I consider myself to have lost no ground. I know what I have experienced, I know the abuse, riggings, and manipulations I go through.
I still wish people would just admit that they don't like me and label me as a free thinker. They could even add on with other adjectives and adverbs. I'm just sick of either being set up to fail or called inadequate when I really think there is more to the issue than meets the eye.
The difficult thing is the varied and numerous groups I have been through. Not every group I have been through is the same. I still feel like a lot of people really do not know or understand me. I still remind so many others that we see the world differently. I do feel very rigged and manipulated in so many instances that I've lived through and that I have experienced additional abuse in a lot of situations. Again, it is what I decide of when how and who I want to express myself. There will always be exploiters who want to exploit every details. I will remind other people though that there is a difference between an exploit and a personal shared expression whether it is a sincere choice or forced way of getting me to talk.
So, how do I conclude? I continue with my life the way it is now. If I have to remind people of what my views are, or my up to date thoughts or opinions of things that matter, than I may say some things.
Until then, I press on to the future, and continue to look for ways to be more preserved, and throughout the tricks and trials, learn from my experiences.