Monday, December 6, 2010

Not enough Time in the Day

I really wish there were more time.
So much to say. Only some things to choose to write.
I feel I have gotten some things accomplished today, but just not enough time to do everything I need to do.
I wish I had more time to read some more twitter articles and blogs too. I think if some info is important enough, someone may find some way to reach me to talk about it.
Other than that, I feel like I do have some conversations sometimes.
Most conversations, still seem to be unresolved. I think some people are trying to use different strategies or sneaky ways to attack me for whatever reason, victimization game, or domination game. It usually falls under one of those categories where people usually try to blame me.

Anyway, I remain on my own and still like it that way.

I do pick up on some drama though where I am concerned with other people.
One situation I do not know how far some connections or matrixes may go. I only have one direct example whose names I will leave out.
I consider one person to be hateful, hostile, and to be straightforward, abusive. I question if he has sincere feelings toward me. I think his issues of anger may be bigger than any positive feelings he may have. And to add on, it is a dangerous situation and not something that I would feel safe in pursuing.
The other person who is involved puts me in a tough and undecided spot where I feel I have to choose one side or the other and meaning it in a platonic way. I think the other person wants to defend my honor despite issues or things he may have against me. I'm still very upset over the matter, but right now, I really feel the need to stay focused and very directive in my own personal life. I feel like I should take this person's side, in a platonic sense, and I am.

I don't have time to cover all of the drama.
I feel approached by someone to help another, and I hardly even know him. He is an obvious attraction, definitely a well-known attraction and ladies man. But the issue of distance is a factor, along with the factor that I don't really know him well. I would be willing and make myself available to give some kind of company or someone to talk to, but I don't know what he wants or how I can help him. I feel sorry for him.
I also think Russia may be wanting to use him to lessen my blows, harshness, anger, and arguments that I have against them.

There is some other drama going on that I really do want more details. The thing is the dilemma of it all. I'm a secretive person, and there are most likely numbers of people who are wrong in guessing what kind of drama I would want more details and story on. So, I will remain silent until I figure out some ways to choose my agenda.

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