Thoughts of the day

Jack, so I'm not always sure what you're thinking or if there are any truths when my mind gets toyed with, with people in the arbitrage......Some signs have always been questionable.... um anyway... What main frame of thought do I have right now? While I feel I have a lot of your interest; I still feel hit with some negativity. I was thinking about "The Rose with The Broken Neck," song. Do you really see yourself more as my enemy or an antagonist than being warm and as my protagonist? Do you really feel some kind of hopelessness and immediate regret in the possible thought of "giving into" me? I've always had a main impression with you being more on my side and as a protagonist, and it's always a given for people to have their own personal list of likes and dislikes for another.... Do you dislike me more than you like me? I have one idea with your antagonism (and I've seriously been sick with how much some men have obsessed over the breast issue and how far some have gone in wanting to harass me) but you seem to be more of a quieter gent about it and I seriously don't see you as bad as some womanizing harassers. After being made to face some harassment and love/relationship ultimatums; I will never get a boob job in this lifetime. With some guilty by association with Wayne, you make yourself questionable, but I know which way you mean for me to take something right now. (Wayne did have a time of being a sexually harassing murderer and was even marked as a murderer in someone's made up arbitrage for the sake of Bree Ann). He has also either realistically dated Stacy or they were an arbitrage item at one time. I have just always known not to trust Wayne. I think he has a thing for me from time to time, but I identify him more as a gangster enemy. Because of this example and other random people, there is always more of a story about you to wonder about. What are all of your connections and what are they supposed to mean? What past stories have you already lived through? I've yet to know how you found me out and why you would notice and pick me? In regards to the Dr., is it just that you have your own way of expressing your anger and jealousy, or do you have any real friendly connection with him? I just can't make some men understand enough how much of a deal breaker it is to go for me after being guilty by association or having already betrayed me with an enemy. What an insult it was for him to think I'd be willing or easy after being betrayed for Stacy, who he already picked first. And, as I've already said, you're still my first choice. I know I'm not understanding all of your anger and I'm wondering have you really already gone there with the issue of me being a stripper? Am I really underestimating how possessive of a man you are and that there are things about you that I've just not processed and comprehended? I have been looking for another part time job that pays decent enough but am just stuck in this job for now.... I've had you on my mind and am in wonder with all that you've been thinking and feeling....