As the Sarah Turns: .......Jack

Jack,.... Sorry if I'm a little pestering with all my drama but I really have got to throw myself on you. Part of me feels like a heartless murderer, but David should have thought more during the numerous times he was being one. If we're going another Harry Potter route, Sharon Osbourne is another "Horcrux" of Davids. Aka senator, doll, spokesperson. As much as I hate some Don Draper communication, I have had my moments of letting myself laugh anyway. But, it's really not as funny anymore. There are certain ways I hate feeling sexually harassed and certain ways I hate feeling ignored. I had some rage in my head earlier with how much of a thoughtless Ike Turner I think he is. I could identify myself some as "Karen," but I feel like a Tina Turner more. It's almost like he feels he has the Karen concept mastered to make the next woman understand "been there done that." There were times of being on and off with him and I especially hate looking at his Hank. If his sex addiction were a food addiction, what diet would he ever put himself on? He couldn't go on a diet if he tried! He'd be one of those 500 lb. men who can't even walk around and has to sit in bed. If he were walking around, all you would hear would be : "woo a cupcake stand," "I see a Cheeseburger" "Pizza" "Bacon" ... I feel so ignored by David in many ways. If I seriously sat down and wrote a list with just how many wrongs he has already done, it would be very very long. He was already past the point of no return. I can't fathom why David would want to stay in a relationship with me after saying the things he has already said. WHAT MAN IN THEIR RIGHT MIND COULD EVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM A WOMAN THAT THEY HAVE ALREADY SEVERELY LET DOWN? AFTER HE HAS ALREADY PUT OTHER WOMEN BEFORE HER? AFTER HE HAS ALREADY MORE THAN DEVALUED HER? HE IS SUCH A PIG TO EXPECT ANYTHING. But that's a thoughtless Don Draper for ya, to snap their chauvinistic fingers around like nothing is on them. While I feel I am already putting the knife a little more deep into David, I feel I could drive it in deeper with: "This is what it means to mean what you say when you dump someone. This is what it means to stop playing someone. This is what it means to cut someone off and make it the end of relationship that it is." It would be rather cold blooded to intentionally include him in this conversation I'm having with you. He's never known what it has meant to stop playing someone. ....... Enough about David. I had to let myself vent and scream a little. Jack, I honestly don't know if we would ever work out. While I can't make a full fledged Draper snob out of you, I'd still probably refer to you as one a little because of your real class of wealth. Your Draper story is different. Most Draper's are already programmed to be forced to wait or be aggressive for. You are more of a play it by ear than a program more than anything. It's a little more difficult in spending time with you. Some programs are the reasons some conversations are made. By programs, I mean tv shows and the most random scattered media that isn't always easy to make the most sense of. Some cats and senators are part of a program too. I usually don't trust all of the "sent it" "senate" people. I know I'm made to question who I'm talking with, but it has always seemed sketchy, shady, and more questionable. I don't know why people send people to do another person's talking. I've always had a problem with it and the way the structure works. I seriously can't have a problem that I know of with the actual lead singer of the Dead Weather. Another favorite songstress of mine is Kelly Rowland and and the song "Representin" I like some of her other songs too. Kelly and Luda have it right with "Representin". I'm sure a lot of celebrities have their own take in talking to people outside of their class, but is it really that much of a problem to have a personal conversation with someone. I've come across a lot of celebrities that are so dominate in conversation; I just don't understand if they realize how dominate, impossible, and sometimes way too snotty they are? What's your take in to talking to everyday people? While I can't completely hate your Draper, you do come across as a similar dominate communicator. "WE NEVER SAID WE WERE EQUAL. WE NEVER WISHED TO BE SAVED." lol ahahhaha! Oh Jack, are we both always going to be on each others other side of the world?