Dear Jon

Before I talk about last night's example itself of yours with your guest, it is a reminder of something I have said in the last letter. You're up to something. While it is easy to catch on to how you present Judy, I can't see what it is I should be catching onto with you when you're talking to me.
It wasn't too much of a big deal to catch up on the beginning and the Palin gossip. You're either being literal with others or playing your own doll game with me when it comes to talk about politics. It is all in your mouth not mine. If I should read into something, I really don't know how I should take it.
As for you in the French maid? No, Jon. It doesn't turn me on. Funny, but not a turn on. If you were being serious about wanting to be the boy toy, you could have a sweaty and slightly dirty shot with your shirt off dressed as an oil rig worker. Maybe even picture fantasies of a vacation on a nice beach and have one of those outside spas where there is a tent overlooking the ocean while getting a nice backrub.
Actually, I have a lot of mixed emotions but some seriousness that you really do make me nervous. And, tease as I may, I really don't know what to think right now other than other conversations offered.
But back to your guest last night, I take it as maybe you are working more at your capitalist games and are showing the understanding of the complexities of the matrix. Of course it is obvious who Judy is in my world, and I will just call Judy Judy and leave it as she who shall not be named. Anyway, you clarify and present things where you didn't mean what you said or acted when it comes to subjecting me to her. You either are letting me know I misunderstood you or you take it back. While you narrow it down and are being more specific with the capitalism, I still wonder about the other specifics. You clear up one specific person, but there are still a lot of other people.
With how you presented it in a more fair but still unfair way because it really isn't her who is speaking for herself, you presented her as letting the person speak for herself.~ It wasn't that you were necessarily agreeing with her but you were pointing some things out while in conversation. I really am not surprised at how typical she was after that. You obviously made no impact to her and everything was in one ear and out the other where she just kept talking despite the things you said. And of course I do the usual and just stare at her and other times I ignore her. The only thing I read about the latest scandal was the title. I already see the bullshit and there is no point in reading it and ~sucking it for her sake~. While you kept pointing out her god complex and pretentiousness that her thoughts is the ultimate truth, she just didn't get it and raged on in her god complex. She really can have a pretty violent and hostile god complex.
With me, you did succeed in when you showed a better sense of sanity, but there has yet to be any kind of change in my life. I can't see who is really calling the shots and controlling me in so many instances or numbers of places. I can't always see where the judgement or shot calling comes from. But if wanting to keep any peace or warmth with me, you made a better sense of comfort in showing your sanity. I still know you can be evil, dangerous, hateful, and have your own deliquencies and attacks, but you're just not being that right now and I'm not complaining.