Thoughts of the day

lol I have my first follower in one of my blog titles. I actually didn't do too bad when I was blogging on Myspace and had a large number. I think this blog site definitely works better than the old. It has been so long since I have been on Myspace.
Anyway, today is another lazy day. January is still more of a busy month but I still can't stand the cabin fever. I have some things to do around the house. I was listening to one of my U2 cd's today and know that that cd will definitely be one of my cd's to listen to when I am in labor. Besides gliding with the lyrics, I felt a little bad to remember that there is some kind of battle going on between U2 and Coldplay. Had I never felt so thrown into the matrix, I probably wouldn't be so egocentric, but it is one of those things that I can't help but think my thoughts really matter as to whose side I am on with Coldplay and U2. I don't even know what the battle is about. As far as I know, it isn't anything that is too severe. I hated discovering one matrix connection with Coldplay and how things ended up with a share or connection that I had met. I just don't want to imagine the lead singer of Coldplay being that type of guy. I don't always trust or seriously believe everything I hear, but sometimes I wonder about the extent of truth to some of the things that do get wired. I've been to a Coldplay concert, but have yet to go to a U2 concert. None the less, I still am a major fan of them both. It is a little more awkward though with the one connection with Coldplay. I'm not sure how I would be responsive to them if it were to be taken with truth or I would ever see them again in the matrix. Sometimes, I wonder if he has a share on House. I think it is possible that one of my literal Dr's could be having a share with House.

In other thoughts, the baby's father was in the spotlight again. I think it is funny that just in one night people are given so much to work with. I still don't have full trust in the system. I don't know how to take the girlfriend thing. It could go in one of two ways and if he were claiming me as his girlfriend, I would remain anorexic to it. So gamblers, there is your gambled answer. In playing with another thought of how he expressed his self image, I'm not sure about that either. During the night, I could tell him and his friends was some kind of matrix set up and he even was giving mixed signals about being straight or gay. So what did I do? I asked. We later got a room that night. Yeah, the whole acting thing was a little immature with whatever type of game that he was playing. I would think that he would just be straight forward about it. If he really wasn't that sexually interested, he would have done something to really get that point across. He didn't. I was out to have fun anyway, so I really didn't make a big deal about whatever matrix game was going on. As for having my own personal opinion? I can see how he could call himself a pretty boy, but I think he could also qualify as a macho guy or meathead. Heck, he works as a fire fighter. I think pretty boys or even metro boys are usually stereotyped to be gay, but macho men or meatheads could be bisexual or gay too. I don't think a person's sense of fashion is always the indicator of sexual preference. Some do use it to give a more obvious impression. I really don't know him that well to say a comparison of how much I would think he is a pretty boy to a meathead. I definitely think he is judgemental and one-sided. That is some kind of chauvenism. Nothing else has changed though. If attempts to keep him calm are working, than I hope he is calm. I havn't been in contact with him and don't know when I will get around to making LITERAL AND PERSONAL contact with him.

In other thoughts, not a whole lot is new. I always feel like I am getting tested and it varies to how annoying it can be. I really don't have a lot to say or a lot of time to want to invest with several ways I have been tested. It is just something I am writing off. With a few certain people, I really don't know how much it would affect me or my baby's survival. I don't know if some threats should be taken seriously. I do brush off and write off the intimidation but wonder if my life could be in serious jeapardy. Well, I really have gotten death threats but this instance of being threatened and tested is different. It may turn into an eventual bridge to cross, but I'm just giving the usual unresponsive stare to the people who are entitling themselves to be so testing.