As the Sarah Turns

I'll start with Jack. I still feel led on by him and am glad. He could feel more "coupled" or "married" with another. It is either Candra or Kendra the playgirl. .... Not sure with some arbitrage gossip. Maybe he is jealous of my Selma oil and wants to just see me as Blake and not both... I saw "Savages" once and it was so violent to me that I blanked out in certain parts. I was pretty mad that they would make it look like I would even "mother" or "care" for Stacy. It was someone else's revenge in my blindside for me. Some mockery against "Wicked." It wasn't that it was weed that I was being violent for either. I already said there was some truth to the movie, but not the truth. I mean to be over most of it and hate to feel forced to dwell on it. .... I'm a little lost with you Jack, but not too lost. You're still pulling me in and keeping me around and I'm glad....... I'm not sure what to do about Zack. He has 2 forms of aggression right now, and I don't want to test just how serious he is in not taking "no," for an answer. I think it is both David and Zack who especially want to compete against my "Ferdie Ferdinand" David is being an impossible and intentional nigger and maybe Zack is a little warmer than David, but I still say no to both. ...... Jack, I'd care to wait for as long as I could. You already have some way of having me won. Have a good weekend