As the Sarah Turns

I'll start with Jack. I still feel led on by him and am glad. He could feel more "coupled" or "married" with another. It is either Candra or Kendra the playgirl. .... Not sure with some arbitrage gossip. Maybe he is jealous of my Selma oil and wants to just see me as Blake and not both... I saw "Savages" once and it was so violent to me that I blanked out in certain parts. I was pretty mad that they would make it look like I would even "mother" or "care" for Stacy. It was someone else's revenge in my blindside for me. Some mockery against "Wicked." It wasn't that it was weed that I was being violent for either. I already said there was some truth to the movie, but not the truth. I mean to be over most of it and hate to feel forced to dwell on it. .... I'm a little lost with you Jack, but not too lost. You're still pulling me in and keeping me around and I'm glad....... I'm not sure what to do about Zack. He has 2 forms of aggression right now, and I don't want to test just how serious he is in not taking "no," for an answer. I think it is both David and Zack who especially want to compete against my "Ferdie Ferdinand" David is being an impossible and intentional nigger and maybe Zack is a little warmer than David, but I still say no to both. ...... Jack, I'd care to wait for as long as I could. You already have some way of having me won. Have a good weekend

What's a Girl to do with Travis?

While I am wanting to keep your weeds pulled out of my garden; I want you to know I do have some sadness about it. I think you know I care for you some. ... I think I'm your Pamela Anderson, and you have your own playful roughness. (It isn't that you never offended me the other day with your intentions. I know Paris really wants a lot of satisfaction, but it came more from your end with your own cover up later with the dangerous driving) She doesn't seem to understand what it means to provoke a person or when to stop. But it could have been you paying someone to act her out... Travis, polygamy and open relationships seriously do not work and will not work with me. I think I could give myself the credit for being a silent and strong woman who is being unwilling, but Master Travis isn't giving up and doesn't want to get even rougher because it could hurt him more for the way he has to hurt me. lol I'm sorry, but you crack me up a little. How could I just deny my own emotions or lust like that? I just do Travis, I just do. I'd rather not go further, knowing 1 day, 1 week, 1 month, 1 year from now MY ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME. How could I call it all a waste of time? While I can't completely trash you yet; you most likely will be eventually trashed. You might resent yourself more than I will. I already have my own benefit of knowing I can't resent what I'm not responsible for. How can I resent you when I know I've told you "no.?" While you seem to be attracted to me in more than one way; I think I could really guess at one reason why you are attracted: I am your tool against Erin and Stacy. The movie, "Me Before You," is probably you being raped by one or the two of them. You understand what it means to be "crippled" by someone and understand what my confident outlook is against the rape of forced bondage games, forced restraint, forced correction, forced dominance that you seriously can't do nothing about or have control over. Maybe you had some sincere emotions for them at one time and may be fed up with their rape by now and want to use me as your weapon tool knowing you understand that I understand what rape is. I would be mad if you did choose to make me the main character against your cripple. I'd call it unfair and inadequate judgement... Mama slave Sarah. While you could be trying to play it safe in your own way, you should be careful how they could want to make you look with a terrorizing food chain. Stacy especially is prone to giving herself a dominate credit she doesn't have. I wouldn't slave mama around in certain circumstances and settings. They really would kill to kill with their vanity. Therefore, you should treat me more like a mom than a slave. I know you like having a playful imagination with me as your Pamela in ways I guess are over your possessiveness or jealousy of other men. I probably led you on a little more by me recognizing the way I could be your tool weapon mom, but I really mean to say "no" to you. I don't know the reasons why you want to take it further with me, but I don't think you should take it any further.