Something happened recently that is nothing new. If people cared to wonder, it is the same thoughts and perspectives that I have with tyranny.........
Funny that someone brought up the digital concept; I was thinking about the same subject yesterday and today. While I was not a genius and earned A+ grades in my brief broadcast journalism major, I did learn a few things about the digital world. I know it is definitely possible for people to digitally make their own changes in various formats not depending on whichever structured world it comes from. The real question on my end is: How much is entertainment and how much is conversation? How corrupt are people being about the conversation and assumptions and gossip trying to be set in stone? Who is it that is testing me? Is the person testing me rolling in the best instincts with what my assumptions are?
I would say most is entertainment. There are a lot of things when I feel I am being talked to, that I tune out. I didn't care to go back to find out what the reaction was. I could already tell I was being further degraded and tuned out whatever was being said.........
Besides some clues with some who's and what's, there is still a lot going on that I am simply out of the loop with. Part of it is by my own choice, and part of it is by choices other people make as to why I am out of the loop and do not know the half of what is going on with some people........
I will continue to say that not only will I not be objectified myself, but I do not objectify on other ends. This leads me into the next roll: I've had a long history with Jon. While feeling tested with someone else, the story is not the same when it comes to feelings and comparison. So if people want to try to make logic, sense, reason, or whatever within their own arbitrage, it will not compare in my world whatever story someone wants to conjure up.
For some reason or another; I don't feel safe in mentioning the name although he may already be obvious. I could further assume he is being a senator for even another person, or maybe he is totally representing himself altogether and in the house...... I'll just put in a few more confirming words. I will answer the first question that was asked awhile ago that I put off and don't know why I didn't call back~ Yes, I would agree that you are better looking as a man than I as a female. Especially after some things, your sexiness can't be denied. I find it interesting about the straight forward question of it all. I really do question the level of seriousness as well. Maybe it is just meant to be a quick systematic death where putting me out of my misery isn't all that bad and since there has not been a rapport of feelings, it is a truth that will make the systematic process quicker. But what if there was seriousness and there was no motive of brutishness? In my own history, I really do have a good understanding of myself. I believe in monogamous relationships. Life hardly ever works out, so why not? Because the deadly kryptonite cold feeling has never gone away. It never has with anyone. I have so much limits in my emotions until I step back and say I just can't take it anymore. It is knowing my own predictable self.
The next thing is; I've never realized just how many gay or bisexual people there are. While there may not always be a terrorizing motive and that people are just one way or another, I do find some truths to be terrorizing. I don't feel comfortable either as a straight or bisexual swinger. There is a difference between sluts and swingers and I am a slut who knows my self understanding for what it is. Some things just don't feel right or that I'm comfortable with...........
I think I had other stuff on my mind but my elaborations made me forget, so I'll just bring them up another day.
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