Something happened recently that is nothing new. If people cared to wonder, it is the same thoughts and perspectives that I have with tyranny.........
Funny that someone brought up the digital concept; I was thinking about the same subject yesterday and today. While I was not a genius and earned A+ grades in my brief broadcast journalism major, I did learn a few things about the digital world. I know it is definitely possible for people to digitally make their own changes in various formats not depending on whichever structured world it comes from. The real question on my end is: How much is entertainment and how much is conversation? How corrupt are people being about the conversation and assumptions and gossip trying to be set in stone? Who is it that is testing me? Is the person testing me rolling in the best instincts with what my assumptions are?
I would say most is entertainment. There are a lot of things when I feel I am being talked to, that I tune out. I didn't care to go back to find out what the reaction was. I could already tell I was being further degraded and tuned out whatever was being said.........
Besides some clues with some who's and what's, there is still a lot going on that I am simply out of the loop with. Part of it is by my own choice, and part of it is by choices other people make as to why I am out of the loop and do not know the half of what is going on with some people........
I will continue to say that not only will I not be objectified myself, but I do not objectify on other ends. This leads me into the next roll: I've had a long history with Jon. While feeling tested with someone else, the story is not the same when it comes to feelings and comparison. So if people want to try to make logic, sense, reason, or whatever within their own arbitrage, it will not compare in my world whatever story someone wants to conjure up.
For some reason or another; I don't feel safe in mentioning the name although he may already be obvious. I could further assume he is being a senator for even another person, or maybe he is totally representing himself altogether and in the house...... I'll just put in a few more confirming words. I will answer the first question that was asked awhile ago that I put off and don't know why I didn't call back~ Yes, I would agree that you are better looking as a man than I as a female. Especially after some things, your sexiness can't be denied. I find it interesting about the straight forward question of it all. I really do question the level of seriousness as well. Maybe it is just meant to be a quick systematic death where putting me out of my misery isn't all that bad and since there has not been a rapport of feelings, it is a truth that will make the systematic process quicker. But what if there was seriousness and there was no motive of brutishness? In my own history, I really do have a good understanding of myself. I believe in monogamous relationships. Life hardly ever works out, so why not? Because the deadly kryptonite cold feeling has never gone away. It never has with anyone. I have so much limits in my emotions until I step back and say I just can't take it anymore. It is knowing my own predictable self.
The next thing is; I've never realized just how many gay or bisexual people there are. While there may not always be a terrorizing motive and that people are just one way or another, I do find some truths to be terrorizing. I don't feel comfortable either as a straight or bisexual swinger. There is a difference between sluts and swingers and I am a slut who knows my self understanding for what it is. Some things just don't feel right or that I'm comfortable with...........
I think I had other stuff on my mind but my elaborations made me forget, so I'll just bring them up another day.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Saturday, August 4, 2012
just a lot
I feel great today thus far. I pretty much finished last again but at least this time I wasn't as much of a
f#!% up. I was impressed with my time. Even though my time did not compare with other runners, I was impressed. It was 10 kilometers (a little over 6 miles) and I finished at 1:23:?? forget the number of seconds. From here, I can only impress myself more. I have one time to beat with the 10K and when I'm not a f*&! up when I run another 5k, I will have another time to beat. I like the t-shirt for this one. stylish. There was a picnic after which was nice, but still early for lunch. I think it was like around 10:30 when the food was served. To top it off, I won from a random drawing, and what did I win? I won a gift certificate to a candy store! Ha! Run a marathon and gain all the weight back. Like everything else, candy isn't bad on occassion. Maybe some sports people are tired of the same health routine and just want to try something different. Don't mind..................................
Work is alright. I got a job as a bartender. Just part time now. I don't know how long I'll last, but I hope to work there awhile. I may add another part time job as a babysitter or something else, but right now, things feel alright. I have some festivals to get ready for. I don't think it would compare to even minimum wage, but since I've already got a load of crafts for this season, why not finish the season off?............................
I was suppose to go to another picnic today but it just started storming not long ago. I guess it is going to be canceled. The day is already too busy, so I don't mind having a little more free time before work. They may just have the party at a different place. who knows...................................
Jim Carrey. I think the time I watched his movie, "Yes, Man," my mindset was curious but not completely sold. I would not have had the first assumption that the Jim Carrey is talking to me. I would have assumed that this was not from the house of representatives where he represents himself, but the senate where he must have "sent it" (lol cheesy joke) by representing someone else. I don't really know who else he would have been representing. I didn't have a strong identification the first time, but when I saw the storyline about him and Zooey, that definitely would have been a thought of mine. With some of my confusion and feeling lost, I usually go MIA. ahahahah maybe that is why he has all this nonviolence on his twitter now. I don't know. But her persona was pretty accurate. I can be nice about things before I have to be mean; and obviously not all communication was clear when it comes to systems and being with the program. Whoever it was, it really was a sweet come around to fight and defend themself that they really are genuine and not seriously going through some systematic routine. I thought the movie was a little more humerous the second time around too. It is just the idea of it all and the simplicity of the idea. As for what is going on in the real world with McCarthy and whatever his sexual preference is, I'm not very sure about Jim..........
Politics. I have noticed a new show with Liberals and "Stephanie Miller." This is the first I've heard of it. It has some of my attention. I feel threatened in some ways, but whether or not there is a very serious Gadaffi persona, it is still very gray with some hidden agendas and drama and confusion about the past. It is and isn't clear. Some of the political talk is clear. I like how the issue was addressed with Power of the People vs. the U.S. Consititution. When it comes to right and wrong, I really do feel that the U.S. Constitution feels more right overall. I understand one downside to that is more govermental control which could end up having more communism in fighting for more control. Power of the People isn't always right. I'm sure there are lots of divisions when people would compare which has more freedom or liberalism. There could be some capitalists who are very innocent and mean no harm and perhaps sometimes their own special interests still take too much control and result in too much tyranny. There could be some people who make no choice at all to discriminate and are just innocent. Things aren't always clear: real motives, real choices, real issues of trust,gossip and being stalking and controlling in different personal ways. Sometimes, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to look at a picture and see that some things are just not right. The picture just does not look right. It could take a rocket scientist to really figure out what is and isn't the story to the picture, but sometimes things aren't right at face value............this is an instance where I just feel like talking poltics. I think there was another thing on the show that caught my interest, but this particular idea they brought it up was interesting.
f#!% up. I was impressed with my time. Even though my time did not compare with other runners, I was impressed. It was 10 kilometers (a little over 6 miles) and I finished at 1:23:?? forget the number of seconds. From here, I can only impress myself more. I have one time to beat with the 10K and when I'm not a f*&! up when I run another 5k, I will have another time to beat. I like the t-shirt for this one. stylish. There was a picnic after which was nice, but still early for lunch. I think it was like around 10:30 when the food was served. To top it off, I won from a random drawing, and what did I win? I won a gift certificate to a candy store! Ha! Run a marathon and gain all the weight back. Like everything else, candy isn't bad on occassion. Maybe some sports people are tired of the same health routine and just want to try something different. Don't mind..................................
Work is alright. I got a job as a bartender. Just part time now. I don't know how long I'll last, but I hope to work there awhile. I may add another part time job as a babysitter or something else, but right now, things feel alright. I have some festivals to get ready for. I don't think it would compare to even minimum wage, but since I've already got a load of crafts for this season, why not finish the season off?............................
I was suppose to go to another picnic today but it just started storming not long ago. I guess it is going to be canceled. The day is already too busy, so I don't mind having a little more free time before work. They may just have the party at a different place. who knows...................................
Jim Carrey. I think the time I watched his movie, "Yes, Man," my mindset was curious but not completely sold. I would not have had the first assumption that the Jim Carrey is talking to me. I would have assumed that this was not from the house of representatives where he represents himself, but the senate where he must have "sent it" (lol cheesy joke) by representing someone else. I don't really know who else he would have been representing. I didn't have a strong identification the first time, but when I saw the storyline about him and Zooey, that definitely would have been a thought of mine. With some of my confusion and feeling lost, I usually go MIA. ahahahah maybe that is why he has all this nonviolence on his twitter now. I don't know. But her persona was pretty accurate. I can be nice about things before I have to be mean; and obviously not all communication was clear when it comes to systems and being with the program. Whoever it was, it really was a sweet come around to fight and defend themself that they really are genuine and not seriously going through some systematic routine. I thought the movie was a little more humerous the second time around too. It is just the idea of it all and the simplicity of the idea. As for what is going on in the real world with McCarthy and whatever his sexual preference is, I'm not very sure about Jim..........
Politics. I have noticed a new show with Liberals and "Stephanie Miller." This is the first I've heard of it. It has some of my attention. I feel threatened in some ways, but whether or not there is a very serious Gadaffi persona, it is still very gray with some hidden agendas and drama and confusion about the past. It is and isn't clear. Some of the political talk is clear. I like how the issue was addressed with Power of the People vs. the U.S. Consititution. When it comes to right and wrong, I really do feel that the U.S. Constitution feels more right overall. I understand one downside to that is more govermental control which could end up having more communism in fighting for more control. Power of the People isn't always right. I'm sure there are lots of divisions when people would compare which has more freedom or liberalism. There could be some capitalists who are very innocent and mean no harm and perhaps sometimes their own special interests still take too much control and result in too much tyranny. There could be some people who make no choice at all to discriminate and are just innocent. Things aren't always clear: real motives, real choices, real issues of trust,gossip and being stalking and controlling in different personal ways. Sometimes, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to look at a picture and see that some things are just not right. The picture just does not look right. It could take a rocket scientist to really figure out what is and isn't the story to the picture, but sometimes things aren't right at face value............this is an instance where I just feel like talking poltics. I think there was another thing on the show that caught my interest, but this particular idea they brought it up was interesting.
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