Can't Beat My Anxiety

If I can beat my anxiety one way, I can't beat it in another. I've been getting better at it though. It matters to me to reduce the stress that I have....... This snow storm was much more than I was expecting. It looks like there is two feet of snow out there. It would go to my knees or a little above, and to my daughters chest. So much for getting a sled. We'll still be able to do that when the snow clears up a little more but we can still play in the snow. I think making snow angels is still one of her favorite things but she'll probably get buried under the snow when she tries. I didn't think I was going to be snowed in today or that the snow would be this deep. I was hoping that I could make it in to work tonight, but I don't think that it is going to happen. Maybe the roads could be getting taken care of, but I don't think a lot of people would even be going out tonight. Sometimes people go out on purpose anyway for their own fun or thrill of it. I heard people talking on the radio the other day about grilling their food on their grill in the blizzard as if the weather made a difference. I'm not sure if the club will still be open tonight or if there will be enough dare devils there to make it worth my trip. I hope the roads will be more clear by Sunday. .... I really beat myself up now for not being wise enough with my money. I excuse myself some because I'm coming out from a drought in being so broke and it felt so good to let myself have a little bit of a splurge and shopping spree. I have to go back to being a little more tight and budgeted again because my anxiety is getting the better of me. If I beat my anxiety in one way, I can't beat it in another. At least this problem is just a temporary one for now and will be over in a few days. I have got to get myself out of this house and get a more tough mind set for my savings plan. Although I won't blame communism in this instance, I sometimes feel I will always suffer communism in one way or another..... I can at least get some stuff on my to do list done today. I can clean up or organize a few clutters and keep busy knitting and crafting. I don't think ebay is going to be worth it to me to try to sell my stuff on anymore. It takes a good bit of time to list the items and items rarely sell. Although I've had some luck on ebay and have made more sells there than on etsy, I would probably still have better odds in trying to get my stuff sold on etsy for the specific genre of a sales site that it is. But because I have my own personal and specific problem with etsy, I will never pick etsy to sell my crafts again. It just isn't worth it to me anymore to try to sell my stuff online for the amount of time and effort it takes and the way my stuff hardly ever sells. I can at least use the time that I save from doing that to do something else.