Baby baby baby ouch

So this time, you're not taking the jealous route, even when I take my Monopoly land back. I guess it turns out you know you were the one to be too over assumptive and jealous over Bond. I told you that you left me with no other choice than to watch it. The Heinekin commercial and all. How could our hearts break like that and just continue to walk away? ........ I'm serious about Bree Ann and my other already and plenty of time said enemies. It isn't ok to test me like that. I am stunned to have you back. How naïve am I to let myself be suckered back in? I am not the type to falsely lead someone on and still do not understand to this day the number of times I was intentionally falsely led on. If you do plan to continue being a false lead; I wish you would just say whatever it is you want to say to my face. No woman wants to feel raped or come to a time when she has to understand the rape in being misled. It isn't that I have never experienced that before and it isn't even something I would ever brag for. I would rub in the deception in the fact that it never was a win, but I've never been happy in being raped, cheated, and betrayed. I'm sorry I had to be severe and hurt you, but I do put my survival before you. I hated the way people were never going to stop wanting to control the way I felt or thought about others. I was let down for the last time a long time ago over the sick, piggish, and selfish expectations of others. I've already been dealt more grief than I can handle. .... I'm really not the type to have an ongoing competitive cheating game. I understand how vital it is to protect a personal dominance. I've always believed the most in communication and know how typical of an eye roll some guys have in the communications dept. Like any man's cheating has ever kept me around....... I feel back to a much better square one and led on now more than ever before. I guess I don't know what is to come of it or what or how to wait for you. ..... Charlie is being a sign to say you do have HIV. I don't think I would ever be forced to deserve HIV because I've made a sick joke of other's gossip and whatever aid they seriously thought they could be with me. I don't think Charlie would be a hateful liar like THAT. I assume you have HIV. I'm not going to reduce you to nothing because you could most likely have it. You made me fall for you and I care about you. But we have another BUT in the way. I don't want to get over you but I have no other choice but to need to. Did I say all of the above for no purpose? I guess if you don't have a disease, but I am out to keep myself disease free. I'm heart broken for you and heart broken for myself because of a way I can never have you. Charlie is too loud to deny. I'm sorry I have no other choice than to be a strong assumption............. I'm so broke right now. Work has been so pathetically slow recently and I can't take it. I'm looking for another part time job. Although I planned on getting back on Flirt for Free tonight; I'm going to stay off for now until I get a better firm way of breaking our hearts and I might need more than that. I'm both in sorrow and glad that I have a good love with you, but I'm sorry that it won't work. I thought you would just kill the rest of the relationship off but you killed me with love again. I'm sorry if you feel alone in the world. I'm sorry that I could show you some good time. I'm not the type to falsely lead someone on. Maybe you assumed I had HIV or AIDS through some other source (Precious). I'm pretty sure that I don't. I have never tested positive. I havn't been to a gyno for awhile, but I'm sure that I don't. I don't know what to say anymore.