Today's thoughts on my mind....

hmmmm. where do I start? I can't wait to get my taxes back. I am burning for them.... I did do a little window shopping today the shop before the shop. I need a decent pair of boots that will painlessly last me for a few days. Of course most are picked over and a there is a new season of shows being readied. I have needed these boots for awhile, and there were actually a few boots that were decent. I have also been needing some new perfume... I havn't decided which perfume to select yet. There are some I know I like, but just can't make up my mind. Today, I finished off spraying myself with a perfume that reminds me of me. It smells good, but there are other perfumes that I think smell better. ahahh ha ha nothing personal. It is the comfort of this certain perfume that I'm getting sold on. I could eventually pick 2 different types, but I don't know if I want to spend that much on just perfume itself.... I've made up my mind I'm going to Canada. I will be taking Mitzi out to a different place and then later in the summer we will take a vacation to Florida or even maybe somewhere in the Caribbean. I have to look up the types of beaches with pollutions and tides to stay away from..... Canada has been on my mind though. Boy do I need a real good break..... Plenty of other thoughts and stresses. I lost my cell phone. I'm sure I'll eventually find it but I can't stand being without it. Still anxious for a job. I might study for life and health insurance again. I'm not gung-ho for it, but if I eventually do get a job, the job will eventually be a good amount of income. I did see a local job that really wouldn't have been bad to go for in itself. It was definitely not a dream job, but a job where I could at least get some sort of money for now. I wanted to apply tomorrow but my gut is telling me no. I see a little arbitrage info flying around, and whether or not I have crackheaded men who like me, or an actually smart-level-headed man who somehow knows matrix info, I'm just going with their instincts. They make it sound like it is another torment trap. Another rapist groping bossy woman who fantasizes about being my dominatrix. Because of my history, I couldn't doubt more similar things would keep happening in the present..... Something is up with a few people and a few men right now, but everything is just not clear or spelled out enough. I just can't be sold into believing anything or anyone. .... waiting for my taxes, waiting for or finding a job, I can't stand waiting. Such an anxiety that I have right now....