Dear Rahm

Where do I begin Rahm? I can get you somewhat, but I feel mostly alien to your language and sexual way of life.....My guess to your trap I can say in an extreme way if you are speaking figuratively. You have not officially betrayed me, but I feel you want to cut, label, and stamp my sexual lust for you into being another SIM world sex object. You would seriously give my lust for you a number like that? Is it really nothing? With all the train talk and stuff, you sound like you could be gung-ho for SIM world structure, and would want to simplify all life and communication into your extreme tyrant control. Besides other people, I am also reduced to just another Sim. Maybe you aren't even thinking of me in a swimsuit, but I'm in the mix of your customized version of who you want your "in the sun/ swimming" romp with. I do fantasize at some beach getaway with you........ I know you're leading me on in your own way. You just don't understand what you look like and the way I am puzzled. It was disappointing to learn Brian Williams belief in polygamy. You, seem to have a literal straight marriage and a down-low not so secretive gay marriage. You also seem like both of your marriages are open and anything goes anytime you want to. You have a little bit a way of making me feel special to you, but I do believe you could have some pretty mean intentions. Maybe I have succeeded as "a model," in your eyes. This model has more catwalks to strut and I still have a lot of problems in my personal life. I giggle because I may not be a literal super model but I am serious about problems I have in my life. Your open-marriage bisexuality is something I am alien to and don't really want to conform a lot with. I do dream of having a monogamous marriage one day to a man. I wish there were more leaders who did believe in sexual commitment and of course the commitment not just being sexual, but a completely committed marriage. If I ever were to have some kind of real sexual romp or getaway with you, the life in that would only last so long. If you are out to protect my life blood; you don't sound like you could be permanently capable of knowing or understanding how to protect it.