I definitely have to give some kind of response to this movie. I will say again that I call the hooker or prostitute title a bunch of B.S. But it seemed like the movie was filled with a lot of gossip to fill me in on some things. Some things I just don't care; I think are silly; or I will elaborate or keep to myself.
I wasn't sure at first who I was being prostituted with. But then the guy eventually reminded me of Cory. I had to laugh. I thought it was funny to some extent. I would have concluded him as a friend or friend with benefits at the end, but I saw some other things and have other doubts. While I know it is a lie and think it is a little ridiculous and funny at people calling me a hooker, there is some level of kindness there for them to want me to feel I have a high level of a sexual reputation. Some paranoia for it comes and goes but there is just a lot of things I don't buy into or care to. It isn't that I don't care about my sexuality; it is that I know what my agenda in life is. While I am really aiming my life at something else, someone else's agenda wants me to have a larger sexual rep. oh boy. ....
His wife looked like Jessica L who I went to high school with. She is married but not to Cory. I don't know her husband at all and havn't even seen her in person in years. I wonder why this movie is being brought together like it is. Maybe a frame to force me into a cat fight or even some kind of sexual competition. Whatever.
With Jon, I don't have much to say and don't even want any more drama with him right now or even involved with him in anyway.
With some other people, I think some gossip is funny. I laughed several times at the opera guy in the shower because of who he reminds me of. Some other things did and didn't make sense with the fake fame. The why with the crazy papparazi wasn't very obvious but the idea of itself with the papparazi would make sense in some ways. It is like a prank with not much of an explanation but has some humor in it. It is one way of confirming that sometimes there is no purpose or sense to things but still does not answer all questions.
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I have done a little more brainstorming over the idea of being a stripper... I do not have a set deadline or any plans written in stone. It will be just something I will decide on in my own timing if I ever do. I think I may have gotten a compliment from someone yesterday in a high place, but I'm not 100% sure on how I should take him. Maybe it was not meant to be a compliment at all but it was meant as a degradation on his end or some kind of slander or even mudsling. I'm not liking the idea of more pressure. I have applied for jobs and hope I will eventually be hired but not sure how things are going to go.
